FRIDAY 20TH NOVEMBER 2009

I saw this in facebook and just put it down here.

"Thy heights by great man aren't taken by sudden flight, it is while their companions slept that they are still toiling upwards thy night..."

I am doing this right now!! That's the reason why I am working so so hard for.
I want to be a successful person in whatever i want to do.
I want to realise my dreams and do a good job realising it. ^_^

SATURDAY 21 NOVEMBER 2009

Started watching korea variety show: We got married.

It is great!!!

My favourite couple is Alex and Siney.
They are the best and of course, everyone wanted to be like them.
I feel the most unfortunate was that Alex had to leave to concentrate on his album and that caused Siney to close her heart. When they came back on show again, it takes a long time for them to be close again. I find it a pity. My best friend told me that Siney is married now. I feel so sad for Alex. They could be happy together.

I feel sad all week because of this.

How can a perfect match not end up together?

I feel upset about it.

The more I watched the show, the more thoughts I had.

I missed living in Korea.

I missed staying on my own.

I want to have my own apartment, best still, a big house in Korea.

I can design my own house the way I want it.

I can cook in my kitchen while listening to my favourite kpop songs.

Cooking while listening and dancing is something i wanna do.
haha..just joking!!

Can even dance anywhere any time in the house.

I can rent out my house when I am back in Singapore.

I regretted not buying lots of spam meat back. Spam meat is luncheon meat. And it is delicious!!!
I regretted not playing fireworks on the beach of Busan.

I regretted not sleeping on the beach of jeju island.

I regretted not being able to wake up and watch the morning sun rising .

I regretted not sleeping at sunrise peak of jeju island.

I regretted not going to SM's norae banks ( similar to kbox in sg).

More to think about later....(>_<) HyunJoong is an interesting character like little boy boy. I am glad that korea guys behave like their age rather than maturing personality even though their looks make them look older.
SUNDAY 22 NOVEMBER 2009

Addiction!!!

I love the wedding photos of each couple!!!

I think they are the best wedding photos I have ever seen.

I would love to see certain couples become real life couples.
So far,
Eg: Alex and Siney ( but that's impossible now) Cannot like that!! huhuhu
Andy and Solbi (they are so comfortable with each other)
Seo In Young and Crown J (right from the start, I feel the can really be a real life couple. Not just a couple, but is a cool hiphop couple. ) They have the same interests. And Crown J's mum is so so pretty!! Of course, everyone who watchd the show got startled by how much Seo In young and his mum resemble each other. You know, it has been said that guys will usually pick their future wives who looks like their mums. Same goes for gals.

writtern @9:22 AM

Saturday 14 November 2009

Attempting my homework that is going to be due this coming Monday and Tuesday!!

And this is stressing me out!!!

Sunday 15 November 2009

My homework is finally done especially those due on Monday.

But I managed to complete most of it at 12am, leaving a few maths solutions needing to transfer from my rough workings to foolscap paper.

Monday 16 November 2009

I rushed to transfer my maths solutions to foolscap in the morning.

I felt a sense of relief when I handed in my assignments.

I felt proud of myself.

Firstly, I managed to start doing the assignments even though I felt horrified looking at the questions and not knowing how to approach it.

Secondly, I didn't escape or avoid doing something that is uncomfortable for me at the moment. I face my fears straight on. I know I have to face this early so that I will kill my fears by the time my examinations come. At the end of the day, I want to enjoy my exams!!!

This academic's year strategy would be to
* work very hard right from the beginning (which I always do)
* start reading essential readings very early (which I am now trying to keep up)
* start doing exam questions very early
( i think hopefully i can do it soon once I gather more or less the available exam papers)
Perhaps in December, which is coming soon =_=
* attempt all tutorials ( in short, do any available questions)
* have a clear and well-categorised personal notes for all subjects
* arrange timetable efficiently daily and don't put more tasks than i can possibly can do in 1 day for every subject ( i am struggling to stop being extremely over ambitious)
* Do not do things at 1 shot. Break it out into small bits so that I will not over planned than I could have accomplish in 1 day.
* Do backward induction of the amount and size of tasks I have to do in 1 day.

etc

Main Objective:
Struggle very hard at the beginning to get everything well done and understood ahead.
Get on top of things.

Long term aim: I want to enjoy my exams!!

Tuesday 17 Nov 2009

I feel confident with my essay homework.

I got so tired when I reached home.

I slept early even though I had a test tomorrow.

I can't bring myself to study.

Wednesday 18 Nov 2009

Test
I managed to finish writing what I know whereas some I forgot to questions.

I am too tired to continue studying in the library.

Lucky me!

It started raining once i stepped into the dance studio.

The key word is once !!! I find it amazing. As though the sky is just waiting for me to get into shelter before pouring rain.

Unfortunately, only 1 other guy showed up. The good thing is when there isn't that many people around, he stood near the mirror to practice. That's the spirit!!

And our dance instructor has no mood to teach a class when the majority aren't showing up. I understand her reasoning perfectly well because dance classes's atmosphere are supposed to be high. How can you be high with a class that doesn't show any passion in dance and just come to class as and when they like without any reasoning. And they appear after missing for several classes. My previous dance instructor had the same reaction too when fellow classmates didn't show the right attitude towards learning dance.


I learned a lot from the later class. And the classmates worked very hard in learning. During break time, they will try the dance steps with each other. It reminded me so much of my school cca days.

Can tell the obvious difference between my class and their class.

It is a good thing that I get to join the class.
1. I can look at the standard of the class.
2. I am glad the dance instructor noticed that I ain't learning anything from my current class. A little encouragement!!

Thursday 19 Nov 2009

@School@

Slept early tonight

writtern @8:53 PM

Monday 9 November 2009

Homework homework to be due next week!! ahhh!!

So far, not many people hand it in today. Me too....because I couldn't do it.

I will hand it in next week, I promise.

Tuesday 10 November 2009

I am relieved that our lecturer gave us 1 more week grace to submit our essay.

Today, I am surprised that there weren't that many students showing up.

By right, the lecture theatre is fully packed but this time, a few front rows and some pockets of the seats were empty.

Why did they go to?

Wednesday 11 November 2009

I am confident of myself today because I finished up my micro tutorial!!

Yea, clap clap!!

It works when I do a few questions per day instead of trying to rush the list of tutorial questions in one day.

Oh no! The downside is there is going to be a micro test next week.

Oh gosh, deadlines just keep coming, in fact pouring in.

Today, as usual, I stayed back in school to wait for my cca to start at 4pm.

It is a pity that I didn't have any lunch buddy for the day because CQ had to rush down to her workplace straight after school.

Never mind, I waited until 12.30pm which was not the peak period in the canteen.

I managed to get a seat while eating my lunch alone.

In the past, I would never never never eat meals alone. I would rather buy something and eat while walking around, or take away food to eat at home.

But, this time, I guess I have broken my own rule. As time goes by, I have to learn to be much more independent.

Plus, I need my strength for cca later and I can't continue on studying when my stomach is rumbling.

Then I went back to the library at my favourite spot and start reading essential textbook readings.

I am proud of myself because I managed to clear 8 sets of essential textbook reading using speed reading!!

Haha, less tasks remaining on my To Do list!!!

I packed my bag and went to take a peek at Misha's classroom but she was nowhere to be found.

I had to go so I didn't wait up for her.

When I reached the dance studio, there was only one senior guy doing his own dance.

I took out my psp and was listening to my music while doing a bit of dance. haha...

Weiqi came and the 3 of them were talking.

The dance instructor walked towards me and asked me whether is it okay for me to change to 5.30pm class.

I am fine with it but I was concerned with whether I can fit in the new class especially because different choreography are taught to different classes.

She said that she is going to start a new choreography for the next class so it will be alright. After a while, she said she will think about it and give me a reply at the end of the lesson.

Other than me, there were only other guys in my class on time. Our dance instructor waited for a while before started. Last week, she had told the class that if anyone was to be late, they shouldn't come because it will disturb the class.

I wonder if they were all late and didn't come in because of this rule explicitly told last week.

As usual, the class got bigger in size as time went by.

Until I didn't really have a big space to myself so my actions were quite restricted.

If only, they know how to space themselves adequately. Sighhh...

At the end of lesson, the conclusion was i will change class after the end of the whole ", "semester" that is, 4 weeks later.

Hmm, it is hard to say.
4 weeks later is the internal showcase, which may hold the opportunity of promoting to dance team.

I was too tired to study so I went to sleep at 9pm.

Thursday 12 November 2009

Today is special in the sense that I am only going to concentrate on studying for my Macro test today.

I hope I have more confidence in doing this Macro test compared to the previous test.

Yea, I did manage to complete the test, which is kinda satisfactory.

Of course, I want my grade to be better than my previous test.


Friday 13 November 2009 (Friday the 13th)

This weekend, I am going to concentrate on finishing my assignments for this coming week's deadline. I am getting stressed up because of this.

And at late afternoon, all of a sudden, I realised I was suppose to send a message to Misha telling her that I am not going to join her in her lesson this friday morning. I actually forgotten about it!!!

I wasn't in a good mood around evening time mainly because my mama didn't manage to watch the korean drama that I really really recommend her to watch. Not that I am unhappy with my mama, I am unhappy because my papa came back home early on the dot that the show was suppose to be showing on tv. My papa hates watching any kind of dramas, so even people around him are not allowed to watch dramas of any sorts. That is really frustrating especially for me since I am someone who relaxes by watching drama at times. I treat drama as story books in another form. He only likes to watch news, certain taiwan variety shows especially with magic competitions, certain food shows with famous chefs and certain documentaries. Because we don't subscribe to SCV channels, so life is so boring with very limited tv programmes. And all he sees mainly are news, and news and some more news. Very boring right? Yea, I think so too. I can't stand such a life. I wonder how my mama can endure it. I always try to encourage my mama to watch some interesting shows. If not, life will be so dull for her. And it is already getting duller by the minute because of the limited tv programms. Ahh..grief!!

Not only that, because of the weather, that makes me feel even more upset.

So, I spent the whole time in my room studying. Not that I want to keep studying non-stop, I really want to take one whole day break and relax. I am so tired to keep urging myself to continue studying without leaving my study table.

When I spend my time relaxing, my parents will ask me: eh, don't need to study ah?

That gives me a signal that I have to hit the books again even though I have just barely started to relax. Annoying right? I am exhausted!! I feel like I am climbing a mountain with endless altitude. I have to keep going up and up on the steep slope, feeling so weary and without letting me rest.

writtern @9:46 PM

Monday 2 November 2009

@School time@

Tuesday 3 November 2009

@ School Time @

Wednesday 4 November 2009

As usual, studying in the library.

All canteens were so crowded that I didn't eat my lunch. huhuhu >_<

Continue to do speed reading of essential readings.

Suddenly I feel like making friends with an ex classmate but dun know how to go about doing it.

Will i be weird doing something so random??

The people around me in the library were so noisy until it really slowed down my speed reading..

How can they not realise everyone is listening to their conversations when they are so loud??!!

Even those who were standing very close to the glass windows of the library and talking can be heard.

Quite disappointed because i nearly finish one chapter for my essential reading but I was 3 pages short before the task can be completed.

So near yet so far..It always happen this way!!!

No matter where I am doing, this is like always part of my life.

Whenever I was about to complete the task that I am set out to do, I am always stopped or interrupted by someone else or something.

It is really frustrating!

Hmm, I don't know how to stop this from happening.

It is just something that is beyond my control.

If you have any ideas, then tell me.

So far, I can't think of anyway to solve this.

This time around,i have to pack up le to get ready for my cca. I don't want to get late.

I feel worried that i may not feel well enough to last during the whole lesson because I only ate 2 biscuits for lunch.

Before leaving for my CCA, I dropped by my old class to say hi to misha and of cos talk about class people.

haha hmm..the ex classmate that i am thinking of making friends with didn't show up.

i kinda miss my old class...i wish life goes on smoothly Unlike my peers, i am not brave enough to go through the same route all over again.

Love backfires at times.

I took a bus to the dance studio.

Oh No! My ez link card value is barely enough for me to use.

I decided to alight at one bus stop before the dance studio and it was much further compared to the distance if i alight one bus stop after the dance studio.

I was trying my best to walk very fast.

There were only 2 students waiting for class to start, excluding me.

By the end of the class, only 14 people instead of like around 20 plus size or close to 30 i find it sometimes amusing when people dance and did different things compared to the others.

Not amusing in a bad way, but is kinda comical.

I think i am going to get back my stamina by attempting to do warm up exercises every day.

oh gosh..i have assignments for 3 different subjects and i don't know where to start. oh man..i can't even properly rest.. ahh!! i am so stressed out....

Thursday 5 Nov 2009

There was a masters degree talk that Jingjing want to join and for me, i am interested to know information about masters.

I didn't go for the first half of my lesson because the masters degree talk clashed with my class timing.

At some point of time recently, I did think about having a masters degree, maybe doing something that is really in my interest such as psychology, child development or something of that field. But because of my current situation, I feel that I shouldn't spend even more time studying. I need to do some other things other than studying. I don't want to spend my whole life doing studying as a dominant part of my life.

I am tired of holing up myself in my room studying for long hours and not allowed to stop.

There is test next week again!

When can it ever stop??!!

I am beginning to have study fatigue!!!

After school, June accompanied me to buy yan's present. We had dinner, me having LJS's mango fish wrap!! Ah, my favourite LJS food!! I haven't been eating that for ages!!
It tastes so so so good!!

Finally, I got yan's present!!!


Friday 6 Nov 2009

Event: Yan's birthday party at Pasir Ris
Theme: Pink

Met SM at Pasir Ris Mrt

SM thought we could have been taking the same train since she reached a few minutes earlier than me.

We walked towards the chalet following her instructions from her ipod.

It wasn't that long a distance.

We reached the right chalet place, without much difficulty.

We called yan from the outside of her booked chalet rooms and strangely, she didn't know who I was because she hasn't added me in her handphone list.

Yan came out and invited us in. But her friends wanted her to do something so she had to attend to that first in the room.

I find myself out of place because there wasn't any people around nor other friends that I know.

We went out and yan's sisters saw us leaving. She took pictures with us. I seriously don't recognise them at all from yan's skyecam. haha

We walked around the chalet campus and bumped into Naz. Naz got lost finding the place. We showed her the direction then we walked around somemore before going up to have dinner.

We made friends with yan's friend: Diana. She is really nice.

I am slightly offended by a comment.

We ate our dinner in one of the rooms while watching "entertainment".

The "entertainment" refers to the UB girls talking and the UB boys playing- throwing m&ms into each others' mouths, hitting balloons with their heads, talking after having helium air in their mouth.

Then, they were out playing games.

Yan cut her cake together with her speech and different groups of friends took turn taking pictures with yan.

And it was awkward in that only 2 of us were taking pictures with Yan.

After the cake cutting and cake eating, we left.

I walked to the mrt station on my own close to 11pm and I realised the last train has left!!!

Oh no!! I couldn't very well take a taxi from the east side to west side.
Firstly, I am scared of the cost, those extra peak hour costs.
Secondly, I don't feel safe taking a taxi alone especially at the night.

My last resort was to call my parents to come fetch me but I know they were fast asleep.

It was really a tough decision.

I walked around the closed shopping centre and lastly stopped to sit down at Macs.

I don't feel safe being alone there at close to midnight.

I was there and thought of a lot of things. haha

Since I was in the area in Tampines, I thought: what if i happen to bump into this particular classmate?

Anyway, there wasn't this occurrence at all.

I reached home at around 1am, bathe and used a bit of computer and then went to sleep.

Saturday 7 Nov 2009

@Study@

I am so tired that I couldn't wake up early enough to go running. (~_~)

Sunday 8 Nov 2009

@Study@

I am looking so tired.

I disliked looking at myself in the mirror cos I really look terrible.

Looking terrible is an understatement.

I want adequate sleep!!! (T_T)

writtern @7:34 PM

Monday 26 October 2009

@ School Day@

Tuesday 27 Oct 2009

@ School Day@

An Assignment given to us...have to write essay.

I am ok with it, just that I need to read loads of content.

Wednesday 28 Oct 2009

Test is given back

I am disappointed.

I will work harder under time pressure!!!

Thursday 29 Oct 2009

Event: Go out with weisi for dinner and also to look for suitable presents for yan.

I didn't meet up with weisi for a long time and I got things to tell her that I was upset about. And I will certainly feel better if I talked to someone about it.

We meet at Jurong point in the evening after my class has ended.

She came much more early to look at clothes.

I wanted to eat Swensens food.

There was this big group after us but one of them started their own queue. That is really rude. The good thing was, the waiter already saw us at the front of the line first so he let us in.

We were seated at a cosy place near the cash register.

While we were looking at the menu, I felt water dripping on us and I turned to my left and saw electricity plugs having water coming out. Weird!! How can there be water coming out from the electric sockets? Meanwhile, Weisi thought it was her saliva.

I felt worried because water and electricity will create a terrible reaction. I didn't know what to do. A few minutes later, some of the waitresses noticed this and quickly rushed to the cash register and unplug.

I looked up and saw water pouring out from one of the ceiling lights. How can that happen?

The waitress immediately move us away from the place but there wasn't any available seats so they pushed our table all the way out in the open. Everyone was looking at us.

I haven't been eating Swensen's food for a very long time, close to 1 year.

We shared ice cream after that since I don't want to eat that much of ice cream after a heavy meal.

We walked around the shops to look for yan's present. But I just don't have a concrete idea on what to buy for her.

I talked a lot to Weisi until I was about to lose my voice.

I gave up searching for suitable presents for the day and we left the place and headed home.



Friday 30 Oct 2009

@study@

Saturday 31 October 2009

Today is psychsociety's 1st meeting.

When Jingjing, Janice and me went, we realised it was an informal meeting, somewhat like orientation.

Not many people showed up, less than 10 people were there in the lecture theatre.

We had to self-introduce ourselves.

We left before the lunch reception because Janice had to go to work and I wanted to go back home to study.

We had lunch at makan place and I left for home.


Sunday 1 November 2009

My whole family went running at Chinese and Japanese garden.

Haha kinda remind me of the scene whereby the whole family in the Famous 7 princess drama were running military style.

I haven't been in the place for a very long time so we were walking around, practically spending the whole morning there.

I want to make this as a routine every week to do some running.

I want to lose weight!!!!!!!

writtern @10:08 AM