The Last few weeks of my Dec 2007 Part 1
Today is the last day of 2007...I don't want to jump into the year 2008...me being so reluctant..because I dun feel optimistic even for a tiny bit. I don't know how my year 2008 will be like...is it going to be good or bad? The voice in my head says...'no matter what..it won't be any good. it is only the degree of bad....' i can't continue on like this...the feeling of alienation starts again...i have lost the meaning of everything. i have been 'derailed' near the beginning and have been drifting further away from where I should be heading. Came to the point where the probability of moving right on track seems very low. wo kai xin bu qi lai.
These days, I am exhausted.If i am not going out, after waking up in the morning...eat breakfast....then go back to sleep again till the late afternoon...I am really tired!! I don't know why I am so exhausted when I am not doing that much. (-_-)" I have been going out most of the days..until some invitations that I have to reject cos I need some time for myself. Sorry...u will have to talk to a sleepy panda...who won't give u much lively response.... (witnessed by some of my friends)
I haven't been updating for so long..so I will continue updating from there...
The previous entry was just full of 'why?'...in total, there are 20 whys (don't think people will bother to count it -_-")...one 'why' is equivalent to one year of my life. The way my life turns out to be...it seems illogical...i can't find any logical explanations..which is frustrated...since i can't find any solutions to make my life better. Able to find logical explanations or not able to find..which is better? Able to find logical explanations would mean regrets for the whole lifetime cos nothing in life can be repeated...but not able to find means that I have already maxed out and I can't do anything about it..in other words, no regrets but unable to make it better at all. Both are frustrating in their own ways...
Mr Stats knew he was being cruel for giving us holiday assignments...he gave it anyway...
Thinking of the 2 tests in year 2008 been weighing me down...I am going to start studying..not many days left to study... :( The topic on Globalisation is really (-_-)"..no longer an easy topic...The last week of school- Mr Socio. was leaving for HongKong and China after our last lesson...we were thinking of asking him to end our lesson early so that he could reach the airport on time..haha thinking of his welfare..but actually is more of our welfare. Many classmates left after the break..haha maybe they were going to take the same flight as him (just kidding). To our whole group's surprise, 'Ja' gave all of us a personalised card...thanks! So sweet..haha when I read my card..I couldn't help laughing because she made a mistake. I didn't prepare anything...hmm...have to hunt for stuff to give le....we were talking non-related stuff during tutorial..like guessing the age of Mr Socio....blah blah...our planned dinner will be pushed forward to perhaps after our tests...cos everyone is busy and gotta study for our tests. (@_@) On the last lesson of 2007, (E-E) distributed candy canes and we were eating that during our lesson. We were learning about the economy..about the exports and the imports...Yea I feel apologetic to Singapore's economy because I have been supporting imports and not our own goods and services. I am not helping Singapore's economy at all....(>_<)...but I just can't resist it....
I met up with my friend at Tampines mrt station and started walking around the shopping centres. As usual whenever we go to Tampines, we tend to eat KFC meal and started chatting about school updates and blah blah. Wah it was like reviving those old memories..haha quite nice...that day, she happened to have better imagination because she was saying one idea after another. More than me loh....exhausted me can't think much wacky ideas these days...i am not going to use any of her 'unique' ideas..haha we brought up old ideas that we have tot of and it was quite funny to think about that...especially the 'cement ' idea series. cannot copy ah..i tot of it de...(^_^) She helped me select present for the christmas gift exchange. The budget is under $5, set by (E-E) so it was a tough task. The gift that I bought exceeded the budget..i bought chocolate candles...ahhh..smell so nice...felt so reluctant to give that away...haha Then we tot of crazy shop names..."ooh la la" and " my rambutan" haha wat to do..great minds think alike...haha we decided to go to Orchard to 'fight with the crowd' because there isn't any place left to shop around in Singapore. we went to somerset area first and then off to the mainstream Orchard area. I think this is the first time that I didn't walk into any cd shops...when we left Herren, there was a huge crowd surrounding Mediacorp artistes- Lee Teng, Pornsak, Chen Hanwei and Jeff Wang. Wah..so many people wanted to take pictures with them...This is my second time seeing Lee Teng. To see them in real life is like 'wow'..haha if u know me well, u will know that I don't really support sg media..haha so my response is rare...i just feel that celebrities just have this slightly different aura from others..even sg celebrities too..maybe less than those foreign celebrities. Then we went to Far East plaza....wah our legs couldn't take it because we have been walking for 5 hours non-stop...so we sat down and chat...we saw Elim Chew- the founder of 77th street..with a bodyguard. Next person I saw was.....hmmm...I am pretty doubtful what I saw was right...maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me..but I tot I saw Kim Dongwan of Shinhwa in a shop..he was looking up at some bags and his sideview looked so much like Dong wan!! I only glanced once but it gave me the strong feeling that it was him!! i dun have evidence of confirming because I didn't walk back to the shop..my friend was walking way ahead of me..so i couldn't really do that..plus she can't double confirm because she doesn't know shinhwa...aiii wat a regret..haha maybe i was thinking too much of wanting his 1st solo album...
After that, we couldn't walk any more so we headed home. I was waiting at the outram park mrt station. The train arriving from the opposite direction came and after a moment, there was this group of indian men and women who came out of the train. I didn't pay much attention to them..suddenly there was this big commotion. I turned around and saw them...one man was chasing, shouting in Tamil and hitting the other man who was shirtless. Then a woman was crying and screaming loudly-' Let him go!!' Let him go!" while trying to block the chaser. It was really frightening to see that scene...then the Mrt staff came running down and tried to stop the chaser..they took a few attempts before managing to stop him. They tried to calm him down but he kept putting his hand close to his chest as though he was showing that he was scared. They wanted to lead him up to the control station but he walked absent mindedly and looked a bit dazed into the train that I was in.