hey i am back..long time never blog le. acctually i always wanted to write something in mind but when i actually faced typing, everything just slipped off my mind. maybe i have to recall now..

hmm, i wanted to talk abit about work but it is kinda confidential . so i dun wanna say much here. was looking the employee files and wondered what should be the words per minute (wpm) be to be of acceptable standard. I compared theirs and mine and wondered wat am i considered- standard or above?? Anyone who knows can just tell me,....haha i really want to know what..i didn't take a break at all. my eyes are so tired all the time from looking at all the statistics. it is a wonder that i didn't dream of numbers at night. i so far have dreamless sleep and it is so so nice to sleep in this cold and rainy weather. but waking up is miserable cos i do not have enough sleep and is freezing cold in the early morning. and for the past few days, the company bus left without me..boohoo...
why always leave me alone in the rain?? Every assignment i have is all urgent and by now, i think i can remember most of the employees' names.

christmas day was nice, we went to several places-fort canning park, suntec city and esplanade. haha i suggested fort canning park cos i want to explore the place. maybe i can find something that no one manages to notice haha *day dreaming again* but it is not fun to walk in the rain loh..didn't get to see the whole place. hope that next time i will get to explore the entire area. ^_^ then we went to suntec city..ahhh..the garden festival. unfortunately, we didn't have enough money for the entrance fee. ahah i dun want to wash plates after dinner. so we didn't get to go. next stop, we went to esplanade rooftop where it was super dark. i can only see shadows haha. what a nice view from up above!

The next day, we managed to enter the garden festival and it is so beautiful!! Ahh..i see my future home there...for the time being, i can't load the picture here cos i dun have it. will wait for my friend to send it to me...^_^ saw a lot of beautiful and meaningful displays. if only, i am talented to design such lovely displays. *dreaming*

hmm..wat else did i forget to mention??
ooo i had my first dance lesson. Yeah!!! started from the basics but to me, the instructor could have teach more..haha...surprisingly, i am the only one with background. another surprise is that there are a few guys joining this class. i kept on thinking that only girls are interested in this. But i hope i will be able to learn more from the 2nd lesson onwards and be ready to work hard for my dance exam!!

i am wishing for something that is totally impossible for sg cos i want snow!! If thailand has frosts, why can't singapore?? haha...praying hard...but this temperature, i couldn't stand it le. haha ..hope i won't get sick....

writtern @12:03 AM

Hey...merry christmas to everyone and hope u all have your own perfect christmas this year 2006. During christmas season in sec 2, I heard the song: Perfect Christmas by S Club 7. It was so nice and I decided that I will try to find my own perfect christmas from that year onwards. ^_^ That's my Christmas wish. But so far, I haven't gotten my ideal perfect christmas, i still hope that in the near future, it will come true. May all your wishes come true and have a lovely year 2007.
~LO-VE...LO-VE!!!~

Busy...in the end,..got a bit absent-minded. When i got home, too tired to use the computer. miss my bed...haha...i hope i can speed up my work and do a good and efficient job to show people that i can do it. they shouldn't have to doubt my ability. ^_^ I think i will learn a lot bit by bit.

writtern @10:08 PM

Yesterday didn't manage to go online because I came home late. To my friend-->[Haha, so very sorry that I promised to come online that night. I had totally forgot about it and came to realise it when i was sleeping. Hee...]

16dec 2006
Woke up very early even before my alarm rang. Long time never wake up early so still felt tired. Rushed to Clarke Quay mrt station to meet my friend cos we are going to do job trial. When we reached there, it was still early so we went to nearby coffeeshop. The workplace is so stylish and high class. Then we got a tour of the place-saw the makeup room and the photography studio. One word to describe all this--> WOW!! So the job scope is to call up people and tell them to come down for appointments. Sigh, for me, it was quite hard to get used to it. We even had training and i know i seriously lack of persuasive skills. Boo hoo, I didn't get to be with my friend. My partner kept on making things difficult for me. -_-" me so (how qi fu mah)? But anyway, he is very good in his talking, i guessed that he has done sales before. I think he has the potential to be a salesman. So we did our trial period. Wah, most of them are not interested. My future seemed bleak for that day cos we need to close deals. And at the rate I was going, I think there will be none. I heard them say must have at least 1 booking, if not, cannot go home. My friend already had quite a number of potential bookings le. Half hour before the time to end trial, I got one booking. Wah, so happy. Haha. But i think i have the lowest number bah. Hmm, think i am not cut out for this. So, i should continue to find other jobs. My friend, sitting at the end, could even hear my voice. Haha. sounds very pleasant..haha...i have no idea. Sometimes, we even listen to other people's conversations and they were quite amusing. Hmm, at least feel a bit of satisfaction bah cos i did some work today. ^_^
We finished it at 8pm and were already starving. We were walking in rectangles and couldn't find any place to eat. Took some pictures of christmas decorations. Managed to find some place to eat. Later, both of us walked along clark quay and even went to Fullerton Hotel. Wow, it is so grand. Haha. I am so glad that got my friend accompany me to walk cos I miss walking in the night. So relaxing to walk in the night.

I slept at 12 plus but in the end, I woke up at 4 plus. Didn't know what made me woke up. But i had diffculities sleeping. It felt like i had something but i couldn't internalise it. A barrier to prevent me from sleeping. It wasn't comfortable for me to sleep. Maybe i will recall it later. So i read a book and slept later. Kept on seeing flashes of lightning through my window. Wished it to rain so at least can sleep better. But, it didn't.

writtern @9:45 AM

Yesterday, I was feeling very blue. But now, i think i feel much better. I feel that i am lacking sleep. Early morning go out hunting jobs and returning home in the evening. Spending time online until the wee hours just to send resumes and search for jobs. Watching TV. The next day, the whole cycle starts again for a few days already. I need sweet dreams too...I had one just recently. But still, it is not enough. T_T

Our plan was to go out cos there were some interviews scheduled. Then, got bad news le. So everything is in a mess. Only on saturday onwards, there are plans. Hope i can get a government job. I don't want to work on weekends especially sat cos i am about to start my dance lessons next saturday onwards. Sigh. I guess it is very hard to scheduled everything nicely when things are always not confirmed.

For the whole morning, I played Audition. What a nice feeling, so long never play le. I like to play the 4Night Direction mode. The background is classy and the songs are fast from 126 bpm on wards. This is rather tough plus my fingers were tangled up and I feel like crossed-eye already. Anyway, I miss the songs. haha. Miss my friends in there...^_^ While playing audition, I recieved phone call!!! She sounded like I will get the job, somemore is in Jurong. Then, bad news came. She called back again and said that someone got the job already. Wah, so sad...After that, my eyes badly need a rest so I went to sleep. But I didn't sleep well for some unknown reason. After a while, I just woke up. Listen to some songs.

Looking at youtube again. Realised that JunJin has a new song- Love won't come. Interesting title. I think it is a ballad. He has a good voice loh and dance style. I love his dance movements. He has a new single. But sigh, if he has an album then i will surely buy. It is a waste of money to buy single. Plus it is imported and surely will cause a bomb.

writtern @9:10 PM

Another fruitless and unlucky day. Haha, as usual, both of us were late. The train that my friend was in faced some track error and had to be delayed for some time. This morning, I thought i could play audition cos I finally corrected the mistake and was able to access it just yesterday night. And ahhh, bad news, it had the same problem again. Boooo hoooo.

So we were at Jurong to try out some places.We went to JTC and they have those automatic doors. I stood there too long and got hit by the automatic doors. Right at my wrist and it became red. Sigh. What a nice thing to start off the day.

Next stop, we went Tuas after our break at the Jurong East Entertainment Centre.
Intially, we assumed that it wasn't that deep into Tuas. But as the journey continued, we couldn't find the building that we were supposed to be finding. Kind of horrifying to think that we may be lost. At the same time, it has began to rain cats and dogs. We decided to alight at a near by bus stop and though it was just nearby. But the company no, was 62 and we wanted to find company at no.3!! In the end, we walked back to the bus stop and found ourselves stranded. No soul in sight except for big vehicles along the road.

The last resort was to find a taxi which was quite rare there. Likely, one kind taxi driver took us to our destination. He was quite chatty and friendly. We realised that the bus route actually can take us to where we wanna go but the landmark was after the bus stop. So, in one way, I don't think we will know how to get down anyway. Went all the way there drenched just for a few minutes. Hmmm..very unlikely for us to find a job there bah. But it was worth a try.

The bus ride home was as bad too. I can't travel too long distance cos I will have motion sickness. Not only that, we didn't even have our lunch yet. This adds on to the likelihood of having motion sickness. Recently (jc life until now), I started to have those dizzy spells if I am hungry. By right, people's stomach will be making some "rock and roll music" when they are feeling hungry. But for me, I will most likely be swaying slightly or missing my footing or trembling when holding things or even seeing wrong stuff. Hmmm..no idea why I have become so weak. Before Jc life, I didn't have such problems and was still fine even if I didn't eat anything.

Ahh, finally we went back to familiar surroundings- Jurong Point and had our lunch there. I think time passed rather fast. Then we rushed to Tanjong Pagar. The lady there was nice. Hmm, so today, we at least did more compared to the past few days.

Another unlucky thing was that the shampoo went into my left eye. So painful....for one moment, I tot i was going to be blind. Ahh, lucky not. I wasn't careful. Sign.

Only one comforting thing was that I can play Audition in one computer le.

I hope my luck will be better tomorrow. Like one song title--> Ming Tian Hui Geng Hao

writtern @8:27 PM

Hey, i changed my blogskin le..nice right? haha..i love fairies and those kind of mystical look. Plus i was in desperate situation to change my blogskin due to several reasons. Some reasons some people may have known. But TADA...i got a new blogskin revamp. At least those readers won't get bored, looking at the same old blogskin. I guess I need changes in every part of my life. So I have to put one step forward to start the cycle of changes.

Wednesday the 13th....I think I will never forget this day where everything {even human and natural forces} seems to go wrong and against the 2 of us. We faced rejections, didn't recieve any phone call from one interview, got chased out by one company and the harsh tone of the person in a certain company. Not only that, even the lifts, the mrt machines rejected us. Things just weren't going our way for both of us. Sigh...To start off the day, I even saw a baby cockroach in the mrt and faster walked far far away from it. Summore, i read a fengshui book and it said that we will have obstacles in our career life in 2007 for those born in the rabbit year. Ahhh....tats so unlucky. Then i was flipping through the palmistry book and I realised it is gone case for me liao. Boo hooo T_T We actually travelled almost the whole of Singapore. At night, it was raining cats and dogs. This exactly reflects both of our feelings. I think my pair of shoes is going to get spoilt.

While I was on my way home (22 mrt stops), I formulated a new line of wisdom. " Nagging people aren't meant to understand" to describe how no matter what you say what happens, they will still nag. If they are meant to understand, they wouldn't have been nagging at all. Haha At times, I was surprised that people actually remembered my precious lines of wisdom. For example: Everyone has their noob days. So it is alright not to be pro at this point of time.
Summore, still others bah..though i dun wanna reveal here cos it is kinda private. Haha, but my friend tot it was professional advice. Hee, I am touched. I didn't know i can make good advice to people. Yeah....^_^

Hope tomorrow onwards will be nice to go searching for jobs..
Like my friend said--> today fengshui no good.maybe tomorow sun's position will be good...

Yesterday, I was looking at youtube and shinhwa video clips are so funny. I kept on watching it repeatedly and laughing. Nearly wanted to roll on the floor. They are so cute and humourous. I don' t think I will ever get to see such kind of people in my life. Ahh,...kawaii!!!

writtern @9:49 PM

i was attempting to do a blogskin on my own , but unfortunately i guess i didn't have much progress on it...need to brush up on my computer skills le.It has been a long time since I did some computer stuff. I have already forgotten the feeling of doing computer stuff. Gahhh...(T_T) But I really really want to change my blogskin. Please give me some nice blogskins...

also, i am bored staying at home cos i will tend to sleep. At the same time, I am bored of going out. So how, i decided to just go out. haha but nothing much to do outside...sigh...troublesome. I can't play Audition and Maplestory in both computers since around A levels ended...whyyyy do this to me....this makes me feel even bored..i miss the songs and the dances...i miss my friends in there..i remembered we acted as the cheerleaders and the emcees. And we support the winner..few seconds before the game ended..haha..so fun..^_^

i kept on watching Ouran Host Club...wah so funnyyyyyyyyy....my favourite character is honey sen-pai..though he doesn't behave like his age, but he is so kawaii...his voice is so cute...with his bunny. then the way he sleeps,eats his cake and playing ard is so cute!! hmm..i think different characters have their own charms..so i won't know who to choose. I think my best choice would be Tamaki-kun..the king of the host club. Cos he cares for the people, instead of people caring for him. He is sentimental and emotional. Compared to the rest such as the vice president, mori-senpai and hikaru, they are those that dun show that they care abt ppl. ahh i dun like..haha..but they are charming loh in their way`always show their cool kind. I think kouya is gentle and understanding bah..

prom is over..yeah...i guess it is moderate standard bah..didn't get to eat much...nthing much to do..ppl couldn't recognise me -_-" sum ppl gave some comments but i not going to say out..haha

i wanna have jobsssssssssss......

writtern @11:11 PM

Just came back from going out with my friends. Wah, I am so exhausted that I actually don't even have the mood to use the computer. I was at Far East Plaza and happened to watch the breakdance competition held by NTU. Woh!! They were so good...wah especially the guy with the orange striped t-shirt. He was clearly the best out of the rest. His moves are so out of this world and looks like he was flying. I am crazy over dancers. ^_^Hee Hee. But my number 1 will always be Min Woo..yeah yeah yeah...crazy over him and SHINHWA...getting high over him..haha...if only i know him in real life as a friend...*dreaming again*

Happened to meet a few yjc ppl there. Also, too bad that we didn't get to see the gothic girl. Went to the hotel that we were supposed to go for prom. Also, we went to the 30th floor (top floor) though there isn't any windows for us to view from. But the journey from the top floor to the bottom floor was terrible. My ears were blocked and I felt a bit sick. I think i am going to be a good window shopper, discipling myself not to buy stuff. Haha...Today,i realised there is actually Sylvanian theme park in Japan!!!!! That includes Sylvanian resturant and market!!! Wah....i wanna go to Japan when i am rich girl. Haha...this will be my wish to visit Sylvanian village.. yeah!!!! *day dreaming now*

writtern @11:10 PM