Friday 28th Nov 2008

There is extra lesson tomorrow. Why must it be this week? T_T My friend ain't coming cause she is attending her relative's wedding and she is not intending to tell her mother about the extra lesson. Haha i was kind of shocked that she will do such a thing since she looks like she will attend every lesson.

She mentioned that she is the type that will study when the exam comes. Now, she hasn't the mood to study. Wah!! Shocking news leh...

And thanks for her comment...she said i am hardworking....
*tears coming* at least someone acknowledges that...my parents don't think i am hardworking...
their definition of hardworking is....
- study during every waking hour
-whatever action is executed must be related to studies
-no leisure time at all
- the content of thinking and speech must be related to studies
(as though they can do it like that...no living person can do that...)
So i am really frustrated...i will be thankful if they

Anyway, SF taught me one lesson that i find it really true.
Let me rephrase that...

Looks alone doesn't exactly reflect a person's personality.

Thanks, i will be extra careful...^_^

I think sitting on the fence at the moment is the safest.

hmm..i need to talk to someone to make me feel better...make me think rationally. (>_<)

In the night, i was tidying up my study area....ahh it is much neater now.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

I gave myself quite a scare...because at the same time, 2 friends were talking to me as though i have already knew what is going to happen. Huhh..what plan? I kept trying to recall but i really have no impression that i was informed earlier of their plans. Thought i was suffering from some memory loss.

In actual fact, one of the friends who supposedly was talking to me in msn wasn't my friend!! That was her friend... (=_=) who was trying to find out average singaporean's standard of mandarin...therefore he talked to me in mandarin in msn.

So, please don't assume that i know what you are talking about. Cause i may not be informed about it earlier. Information breakdown is common. In sociology, we shouldn't assume things. haha people on the receiving end have different variations of interpretation.

Next time, i shall just post screenshots of the current game i am playing.
bored with just words in my blog..haha

writtern @10:31 AM

Today is the day that my father will be staying in the hospital for 3 days for a checkup. Last year, he was sent to the hospital because he wasn't feeling well during work. Hope the reports will turn out well.

Yesterday's mediacorp anniversary event was the best so far. So funny the way they imitate the old memorable drama series.

Watched a program about a family that has 5 kids and they are trying to make ends meet. Sigh, it was very sad...having so many kids is certainly a huge responsibility.

Tuesday 25th Nov 2008

writtern @12:43 PM

Saturday 22nd Nov

I regretted not being a child star.

Studying loh...
Practising dancing loh...
My lovebox character is stuck and no one can help me...aiii....one scary thought striked me, i may have to delete my character...ahh nononono....i worked very hard on it...hard to level up leh. Somemore i have another character that i didn't manage to touch at all. (~_~)
Just when i am about to lose hope, i seized an opportunity to get out...haha so relieved. Now, i will be extra careful, cannot make my character hungry.

Sunday 23rd Nov

Went for dinner with some of my relatives...

My eyes are so tired from my studying that i wasn't really looking when I went out.

My mother is very shy of speaking English and when it is the time to speak English, she will be stuttering and couldn't pronounce it properly. Aiya, just like anybody who is more comfortable with Mandarin. I grew up in a chinese speaking environment so I used to have the same problem. But after interacting with other races and encourage each other to speak English often, the way I speak is improving.

haha I used to have this weird problem: (=_=)What happened to me?
When it is chinese lesson, i will speak english. when it is is english lesson, i will speak chinese.
I like to read english books but dislike reading chinese books.
I think in English but speak in Chinese.

Okok, bringing back to the issue about my mother. My mother was telling me and my bro that our younger cousin plays rugby in school...but she pronounced rugby as rubbish..so it came out as: he plays rubbish...instead of he plays rugby. Wahahaa...so funny.

In my father's car, we went past this primary school. Then it went past this building that looked like it was linked to the primary school. There were lights on in the building and my mother commented: Ah, the students are still spending time in school, must be some holidays events. And further down the road we went, the sign said.."XYZ home for the aged." Wahahaha, my mother mistaken the building as part of the primary school. hahaa

writtern @10:30 PM

Wednesday 19th Nov

He gave us another assignment....

today's lesson was terrible..he skipped here and there and just went through the last few pages of the set of lecture notes...=_=...doubt anyone knows what he is talking about.

i am so thankful that my previous assignment was not a bad mark loh.....the funny thing is my friend is the one who told me which question is under what chapter and blahz but i got higher marks than hers. =_=

thinking of setting up a study group...no one is taking the initiative to do so..shall i be the one?
thinking whether should i intro my friends to the other friends then we can form a much bigger group?

Thursday 20th Nov

Heez...couldn't bring myself to study the whole day...

Friday 21th Nov

Planned to buy econs textbook but it was gone le. aiii..but finally saw calculus textbook on sale.
Yea...finally it is here!!
=_= who will get so excited about a textbook? haha i guess i am the dramatic type of person. Just that it wouldn't be that obvious to other people that i am not very close with. I don't really show it out...

Gosh the lecturer misunderstood me!! Ahhhhh!!!! Don't wanna think about it.....don't....

All of a sudden...i have the urge to talk to someone...so called up my aunt(ex-colleague) and chatted on the phone...Thanks for the chat~~ I couldn't talk to other people loh cos they are all busy with their own things. Aiiii but at least that chat makes me feel better....

I feel like i am dancing cha cha or something like that
one step forward, one step back, one step forward, one step back...
I am back to the state of confusion again...

writtern @1:03 AM

我是不是错怪了他？

writtern @11:57 AM

writtern @11:28 AM

Tuesday 18 Nov 2008

Helloz!!



I am in school now and waiting for my senior to have lunch with me.
I refused to eat alone...(>_<)


So far, I was very early for my class and did my test..hope that i can pass loh. This time round, at least a pass is sufficient, since i didn't have ample time to study very well for 3 chapters.

Planned to start work straight after my morning lesson, but heez, decided to face the computer instead. haha I need a break...

Hmm..can you believe it?

One single thing has been happening..*let me calculate* around 730 times!!
(nah, i refused to tell what exactly is it, private matters ah)

But the frequency is enough to make me think this is seriously no simple occurrence.This is no Poisson distribution. I have been wondering the same old question for a very long time. Right now i am facing is, i know something major is going to happen *by the frequency* but i can't seem to pinpoint what is it and when it will happen. That long waiting is painful. There seemed to be no movements that may lead to this major event. Hmm..well at least from the surface. Underneath the surface, of course, it is hard to determine.

Haha sounds like i am predicting an earthquake or some major natural disaster. No lah, i am talking about something that is far from this.

But still, I do predict events accurately haha...though the events are personal, not some international events or something like that.

I am just curious as in to what will happen...at the same time, i fear it will not be to my liking...i fear i will be disappointed, i fear it will be negative.

Kinda dislike the thought of knowing something but couldn't do anything to know even more about it. At this point of time, not much information is enough to make a deduction about whether it will be positive or negative.

Why am I fretting over this?
Hmm..i just feel I had to....my heart tells me i need to bother about it...the feeling gets stronger or more faint alternatively,till i don't know what to deduce of it.

Yes, it definitely is a headache, a case that i really want to solve.

I can only hope i will get to know the truth as soon as possible...hopefully by this year?
*shows a hopeful expression*

i know i can't go on like this, i don't want to get mad over this....please sky, grant me my wish.
if it is a positive event, then let it happen faster
otherwise, make it happen slower..haha

@Still confused@

writtern @12:14 PM

Something off the track

I finally have a facebook account due to much pestering from my friends.

I gave up not having a facebook account...okok i surrender le!! *waving white flag*

This picture is taken from June's albums...haha

A group photo of my university friends. This is just one group bah and i have became much closer to them in my second year compared to the other group. Hmm, perhaps we have meet up much more often relatively before our second year starts. And all of us feel like we have knew each other since secondary school, but of course we didn't know each other back then and in different secondary schools. We behave like secondary school friends than university friends, at least that makes it cosier right?

This picture is taken during JJ's birthday celebration and Janice made the cake!! Yea, it is delicious, just like eating an ice cream cake...yummy!!

I miss all of them since i am the only one who is not studying the same degree as them. They are very reliable group of friends that I miss having in class. Hahaha....love to discuss questions with them for sociology last year...

Chose this photo because I look acceptable in it..haha aiya my hair isn't that obvious..sad ...

Finished watching Rolling love and i must say.....it is not bad...at least i won't be that emotional.
And the more i watched Jiro acting, the more i think he really looks like someone i used to like many years ago..haha

writtern @2:33 PM

Monday 10th Nov 2008

Studying as usual~~nothing much to be said about that.

My ex-colleague took over a few of my classes for a day and she said that all the students were asking about me, aww they miss me. Heard that Sheyenne wanted to give a present to her teacher...hmm..is it me? ahhh i want the present!!

It feels so good to talk about my students with my colleagues who taught them too...they are all so adorable kids.

Tuesday 11th Nov 2008

Early in the morning, while waiting for the bus to go school, I saw one of my students, Wenhao. But he didnt notice me.
Had a late lunch today because my senior is late. So headed straight to library after my lesson to wait for her and started doing my calculus tutorial for tomorrow's lesson. Very glad that I at least spend the time to get ready for tomorrow's lesson.

Wah, i thought that i have read ahead for tomorrow and was so proud of myself. But, my friend told me that he had already gone through that last week. Sighh, so dissappointed...i thank my friend for informing me...^_^

Wednesday 12th Nov 2008

I finally attempted my tutorial for today's lesson!! So happy and of cos I read a few pages ahead for my lecture. Not enough time to finish the whole lecture notes though. At least, it was worth doing that. I understand much better. ^_^ Calculus is tough~but I am willing to do all i can to make it better.

Thursday 13rd Nov 2008

Rushing to do my 2 tutorials for Friday's class.

I feel like the Roadrunner from the cartoon.. haha Beep Beep!!

Friday 14th Nov 2008

Ahh..i attempted the wrong tutorial...(T_T) huhuhu...And there is a test again 2 weeks later...Good news is it is only one topic, instead of the many topics for the first test.

Pressurised....

Saturday 15th Nov 2008

Went out to celebrate ML's birthday at Orchard. Before meeting YW and ZY, i went to visit my colleague and had a long chat. Anyway, spend the whole day at Orchard...yippee, i am not going to Orchard for work..hahaa, i miss my kids though...

since when did i have a status of goddess? haha very amused by it...

Sunday 16th Nov 2008

I have a test this coming tuesday and i am trying my very best to finish studying it. Plus finishing what i am supposed to do for the whole week. But i am tired..so i went to sleep...

writtern @10:35 PM

Sunday 2nd Nov 2008

Furiously rushing to prepare for my coming week's tutorials....

Mon 3rd Nov 2008

So tired of facing the books...so gave myself a long break..haha rejuvenation...^_^

Tues 4th Nov 2008

When I am in class, i usually concentrate very hard till I won't be that aware of my surroundings. And when it was the time to do some mini exercises, I looked at my left hand and saw that my whole hand was covered with red smudges..that looks a bit like blood.. Wah made me panick...where is this red thing from? I looked closely at my hand, looked a bit red and pink. Oooo, my red pen's ink leaked in my pencil bag. Aiya, gave me such a fright. I went to clean it up and checked whether my face had any red smudgings. Thankfully, no.

During lunch, senior and me wanted to eat the all-famous japanese food so we queued for ages. Then headed back to school to start studying, but since there is a exam period for other students, we had no seats. Wasted our time finding a place to study.

Exhausted...hmmm, should have sleep early the night before....

Wednesday 5th Nov 2008

Studied in the library...^_^

Thursday 6th Nov 2008

Preparing for tomorrow's test...sigh...only managed to study 2 chapters...>_<

Friday 7th Nov 2008

My plan was to just sleep early and don't do any work till the next day....because i was that sleepy.
But after class, I felt i could just go on and study...so study till 1am or so.

Saturday 8th Nov 2008

My progress was too slow le....so hardly done my tasks for today. Disappointed..(~_~)

My colleague wanted me to relief her for one of the saturdays, but sorry I can't. I don't want to go back during my studying period, don't want to harm myself further by having less time for studying and i have bad memories there.

My right foot was so itchy, not just a normal mosquito bite, but almost the whole foot was itchy and it swelled. Poor foot!!! Oh ya and my left eyelid finally stopped twitching, it had been twitching nonstop for a few days le. Hmm, i guess it is really bad luck...aiiii....or because this week was rather rushed.

Sunday 9th Nov 2008

Heez, back to playing LoveBox....at least i got do some work haha...
My current drama to watch is Rolling love.
Danson said something in the drama that was quite philosophical and interesting..
" A few imperfections can create perfection"
Oh my, i think i have become a fan of Genie Chuo..her voice is so wow..hmmm, maybe i will check out her cd albums..haha

writtern @11:04 AM

Saturday 1 Nov 2008

Ding dong..it is november le...i don't want this year to end...

woke up very late loh.....ate one egg for breakfast (i love eggs eaten in that manner)

immediately started to do some studying

felt tempted to sleep but have to meet the ringu friends at 12 at JE interchange..need to buy present for tall guy in orchard...(keep telling myself not to sleep) endure endure endure!

aiyoz...a sudden change of plans..it seems JH already going to buy the present with her bf...so we put her in charge of buying...

we were at novena square waiting for the birthday boy....and he was late....

walked to hotpot restaurant for buffet....it was supposed to be early dinner at 3 pm. Haha most didn't eat breakfast and lunch earlier.....heez which includes me...

please don't drag me into rumours regarding relationships .....very nan2 kan1....why do u have to make things awkward for me? Plus he is in the same class as me for many subjects and it will just be even more awkward to talk to him. And....we treat each other as friends and classmates...actually acquaintances that don't talk much. We don't know what to talk about. So, stop pushing the topic. I personally don't like to have this type of rumours especially, because i don't want to affect the friendship between me and another guy. Just some baseless rumours will easily worsen the friendship. So, please, stop doing this to me.

finally reached home and concentrating on my studies

ahh..kinda regretted going out..i have lesser potential hours to spend on my studies...

writtern @7:28 PM