♥A Love Affair

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

hey...all the best to those who are getting their results tomorrow... ^_^..yeah, i know it is very frightening. to me, it is a blessing in disguise that i didn't get to promote two years ago. if not, i will sure have Fs for my A level results. Also, i got out of depression and feeling much better about myself.

hmm...saw my pri school classmate online and was wondering whether i should talk to him. haha, eventually i did. Dun know why but i feel like talking to him. ^_^. hope that he doesn't feel strange that i just talk to him out of nowhere. was asking him whether he still remembers me...haha i think he doesn't bah. he asked me..any memorable incidents??...hmmm..i really dun recall much about it. he asked me..were u the girl that i give the bible to? then again..i am not sure, dun recall that i got recieved a bible from any guys. As far as i remembered, i only had a bible which everyone is suppossed to have one during primary 3. I know that he has music background. After reading his friendster profile, i realised that he likes dance (hiphop). yeah!! common interests....haha...but too bad, i haven't tell him that cos he went off line already. too bad...

i think i should talk more to him next time bah..cos must maintain friendships...even though it has been years since we talk to each other..we were in the same class during primary 1 and 2. So long rite? He is one cool guy...kk...i think he is going to be in my list " the people that i admire a lot of their qualities". i can tell u that he is very smart and very artistic now. Now then i realised that he is more into arts, thought that he will be doing science. His a level subjects are maths, lit and arts elective program. cool right?? I feel so inferior now..boo hoo...In my opinion, he has become a person of depth...yeah..i love to talk to such people. People that i feel have depth ..i wiill tend to talk more and whenever i see them online, i will just talk to them. haah...i must be very irritating then. gosh ..but still..will never be on the same standard as them...

whenever i talk to my primary school mates or friends, i feel so so inferior. Why? Cos they are doing things up to their potential. Me? I have been deproving. When will i be able to do things that are up to my own potential? Most of them are in top jcs. Their results are so good. feel very small now. i remembered that i told my pri school friend that i got R. And her comments: i tot u are smart? wah..that really pierced deep into my heart. After when quite a lot of things are happening nowadays, i told my sec friend that i am tired of living. Really, i feel that way. feel like spending a time isolating myself from other ppl. Tired of being so concerned over others and yet get nothing in return. Tired of being so overly sensitive to peoples' situation and neglecting my own welfare. Just so so tired.

my bro found this infor from somewhere..quite interesting..

Relieve stress in class
1. Leave permanent markers by the dry-erase board.
2. Ask whether the first chapter will be on the test. If the professor says no, rip the pages out of your textbook.
4. Address the professor as "your excellency".
5. When the professor turns on his laser pointer, scream "AAAGH! MY EYES!"
6. Relive your Junior High days by leaving chalk stuffed in the chalkboard erasers.
7. Sit in the front, sniff suspiciously, and ask the professor if he's been drinking.
8. Correct the professor at least ten times on the pronunciation of your name, even it's Smith. Claim that the i is silent.
9. Sit in the front row reading the professor's graduate thesis and snickering.
10. Feign an unintelligible accent and repeatedly ask, "Vet ozzle haffen dee henvay?" Become agitated when the professor can't understand you.
11. Wink at the professor every few minutes. (Hey you might even get a date if he/she is cute.)
12. Every few minutes, take a sheet of notebook paper, write "Signup Sheet #5" at the top, and start passing it around the room.
13. Start a "wave" in a large lecture hall.

writtern @10:53 PM

Friday, February 24, 2006

Had 2 hours of pe..but haha...we just did 1 hour and after that, we can do watever we want when the other class is doing the napfa pretest. i spend my whole time stretching. dun know why but whenever i finish pe.. i feel like doing that. can't believe i did the side splits very near to the floor,usually, i couldn't manage to go so low. Was stretching where not many people can see me while my friend was talking....hah....{i dun believe u hor watever u were saying}the first hour pe was terrible...i think i hurt my hand even though i was wondering how did i injure it...so strange...my legs are aching now cos i spent a long time stretching...

Recieved a shock when my friend told me something that is out of this world in my opinion. i dun think it is good to say it here, i only told a few. i talked about it during cca without realising that my teacher is there. Oops....up till now, i stil can't believe it...gosh gosh gosh...

Also, some things happening today disgust me a lot. got a bit irritated. I cannot mention it here too, only can tell a few people. ^_^

Went cca late cos there is nothing much to do actually for my part. dun need me also can. so i spend time doing my tut 17 lect exercise. luckily, friend pointed out something and i realised that i misread the first question wrongly. spend time reading the speech for the synchronised swimming part for the people involved. tiring job...

there are some things that i can't say so in the end, nothing much to say. ^_^

i am very tired now though i was actually planning to do my work before sleeping. but i just have no energy to do work., tomorrow will be busy the whole day...hope my teacher brings the video camera along to video tape thewhole thing...it will be a pity if it is not being filmed...

Oh ya.,..when i was in the Mrt smsing to my friend..there was this little kid in front of me..he was like trying to talk to me softly...and i couldn't really hear wat he was saying...after a while..i realised he called me...auntie...auntie...want to sit there...?
gosh..since when am i an auntie...?? it was kind of embarassing..cos i think the people around was like wondering what he was talking to me...gosh...my pri school friendthought that i look like a primary school kid..and this little kid thought me as an auntie...haha
ok ok ..i will forgive him..haha...perhaps he thinks that all are called aunties...nic elittle kid..
my mother was laughing when i told her that...
think she will call and tell my grandmother about it...
-_____________________________-""""

writtern @9:49 PM

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Today, we had 3 geography tests and i am very worried about it. Firstly, there were 2 drqs in the test and we were just given 45 mins. I didn't know there were 2 drqs in the first place. I saw someone having a different question than me, then i realised it. So i ended up not doing the second question. I think i will do it badly for sure. Second test was quite ok. Third test was bad too, we had to do a lot of questions for 1 hour, plus she promised that she won't ask us questions on section 5 but she put in such questions. So unfair to those who have only elective geography during Os, and that sure includes me. If i did pure geography, i wouldn't have face the problem of having lousy gradees for geo. Hmmph...the school should have give us 2 humanities loh. In the end, i am at a disadvantage. Is my life deemed to fail? *sniff*

I dun know wat is happening to me. Been feeling kinda dun want to be involved in stuff. And also, my stomach is not feeling well...nowadays. My parents still dun believe that it is a norm for people at my level to sleep late even though my teacher has already told them there is something wrong if that person always sleep early. So, i guess it is back to square 1. *_*. At least, there is a bit of leeway for me then. They didn't really tell me to sleep early now. Oh ya, i was actually expecting them to scold me, but in the end, they didn't. Perhaps, they think it is useless to scold me since i always having lousy results. I already told myself that i will give myself some time to stablisie all my subjects' results. I just need the time and the stamina to stay fully concentrated for long periods of time to do so.

On saturday, it will be our anti-drug dance competition..i dun know whether i am anticipating it. I can tell u that i am still puzzled over the decision being made...why?? I think if we are able to make it to the finals and when things have changed, then they will think of us...(if u dun know wat i mean, it is ok..cos i dun really want certain ppl to know...) a big sigh....

Today, i saw this little primary school girl on the bus.. her back was facing me and she was carrying a normal bag. And u know wat was special on the bag?? haha...someone used a marker to write the words BILLABONG on the top of the bag...so funny... i think the parents may not be willing to give her a branded bag and so they did it. haha...

writtern @8:48 PM

Monday, February 20, 2006

To me, it is the busiest week so far. I have cca for everyday except thursday till 7 plus. I have a lot of homework and i need to study for the upcoming 3 tests during thursday. Also, my bro is having his common tests this week and he wants to me to help him with his revision. Yeah, can see how busy i am right now as compared to last week??

I didn't have a chance to get out of the competition. Mini involvement. Actually i was relieved that i didn't hear my name being included in the dance. Because till the end of the list that the teacher was reading, i didn't hear my name. After a moment, the teacher suddenly announced that me and another are in it. Gosh, my reaction was kind of biggest. I know some of them are quite upset at not being chosen. Sigh...i feel very sorry for them.

I keep on telling my teacher that for arts fusion, i want to do backstage stuff and she totally refused it. i am not good in chinese dance and jazz or even anything if they are going to use that for any things....

writtern @9:06 PM

Saturday, February 18, 2006

I have forseen that the next week will be terribly busy with this and that. Next saturday is the dance competition and i totally am not confident with it. -_-, i will be appearing for last than a minute in the whole dance, might as well quit the whole thing rite. Yeah, the last bit of the whole dance. (-_______-)"" Sorry to spoil the whole thing but i personally feel that we won't be able to make it.Heard that we haven't even join it up. Also, what about the other category...?? Hope that it will be over cos i really dun want to be reminded of the conflict. Going to have a full dress rehearsal on monday and wednesday, we are going to perform for the wednesday expresso. (-________-)...gosh ..how "early" the notice is..... So we all have to stay back for mon, tue,wed and friday. My prediction-- going to stay back for thursday too for other stuff.

Unhappy with the management. they already have one slot for additional classes but the thing is they didn't inform us that there is a compulsory slot for such. People don't have so much time to wait for last minute additional changes. Always make me change my fixed plans.Hmmph....

There is really so much to do, can already feel the "heat' this year compared to last year. Work has started to pile up and sat and sunday are used to finish up the weeekend homework instead of revision. Somemore, non-academic stuff are really seeking attention now. There are many tasks to do on the same day and at the same time. Which one should i say no to?? Life is about making decisions...n i am doing it right now. Too many ways to choose and yet we have to find just one best way at that particular period of time. Every homework demands total attention. I don't have the adequate attention to take care of every subject. I need clones!!! Hmm..maybe clones for various subjects..haha.then after a period of time..then can join up together to become me again. Then can split again if i require it. Seems scary. ^_^

I am getting tired easily and doing work at a slower rate each time. There are a lot of tests next week. Just when i need to spend more time on cca for the time being. Why do bad things always come as a "flood" but good things always come like rare rain conditions in deserts...? Hope everything will come back to normal situation when next week passes by.... but i dun like to spend my year so fast. Contradicting me..

Decided on a new arrangement at home and hope that it will make me have a more conducive environment for doing homework and study. ^_^ gonna bounce back..gonna be resilent....gonna show people that i can do it!! i will survive..this year!!!!!!

Commitment, hard work, sincerity and planned efforts are the main keys to success in every profession."
Written in 2006 by Harish Gaur --- India

" Motivation together with inspiration is fuel for the mind of every human being."
Written in 2006 by Ebenezer Lamptey --- Accra, Ghana

writtern @1:25 PM

Monday, February 06, 2006

This is the right time for the world to come crashing down.
Can't even get out of the event, thinking of some fresh new points to state our stand
i think i just accidentally blurted out what should not be mentioned.
but anyway, i am thinking of resigning.
not adventurous enough to get out of the whole thing
outside "world" is frightening.
hope we are not seemed as rebels or some people who want to overthrown the whole dun-know-wat or even people who threatened the stabilitity of the situation.
feel guilty to a few people about it but i have no choice.
i have my own reasons...

poor results for the block tests, i can imagine.
maths is actually all due to careless mistakes, feeel like killling myself
gp is real tough..
econs..should be failing
geo should be failing
sigh
this is terrible....
gotta work hard so i must give up something and unfortunately i may have difficulty doing so..
ahhhh
everything seems to be going downhill

i think i am quite ok with my geog hydrology test. i prefer my teacher's teachings -her style. yeah plus after and before lecture..i always read thru my notes..so quite ok...need more content to supplement my notes..
sigh..overall..recently makes me always feel down.
hope life will be better after this...just get out of it .and everything will be fine.

writtern @7:42 PM

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Most people around me already knew that major disappointment of mine. Even though it happened quite a while ago, but still, i am feeling a bit sore about it. Also, i felt quite sorry that people who knew me have to hear my complaints about it over and over again. Luckily, there are some people who can actually talk about it with me cos we are in the same boat. I think they are probably tired of talking about it, but i still haven't finish my say yet. All day long, i kept on thinking the same old questions to that, with no answers back.

The deed is done and all i can do is just nothing. I don't think i even want to get back in if they ask me to. Hah! I still want my pride and dignity. Not going to beg myself in. Eventually, if they have shortages, i am not going to be some "poor quality replacement". What are we?? Not going to care any longer. Just the start of this year, and it just happened that way. Yah like someone said: "everything is just wrong." Yeah, i totally agreed. To me, it is one of those nightmares which will never end. Hmm... i am going to talk it out with the teacher about it this coming monday. I am not N anyway, wat's the point?

I can't believe it. This year , i have been appointed for a number of things. Why can't choose better people?
For class NE rep, in charge of doing up the character development notice board, in charge of the bazarr drawing competition for certain stuff.
CCA cip rep..have to think of cip for everyone to do. hah, i find no meaning to be always there and this is just given to me. So contradicting.

Going to take part in competitions
Maths American competition, econs quiz, geography NWP
haha practically my A level subject combi ...except gp.
can't believe that i did sign up for all these.

Went to my ct's house on the last day of our cny holidays. The atmosphere seem quite too dead to me. At least, got to get to know our newcomers a bit better. Her laughter always make me laugh. There were quite a number of funny incidents on that day. I like his place..so big and nice. I want to live in a condominium next time. His daughter is adorable, just that she is very shy and doesn't really show her emotions clearly. I didn't really go near her cos i am not used to baby girls. My younger cousins are all boys so i am used to baby boys. It is so tiring to take care of boys. There are always not aware of potential dangers.
What i dun like is that we need to go to school the next day.haha

Our school's jogathon become our walkathon. We walked all the way for 3km and talked too. It was the first time that no one ordered us to run. After that, i went to Orchard because i need to buy the music album real badly. But there wasn't any sight of it. Aahhhhh, i really really want it! I think it is not popular enough to be sold in here. Gosh, i really want want it. Thinking of buying it online but i dun know how to do that. wanting to ask my friend to help me buy and then i will pay back. dun know who can help me?? i hope it is not expensive..i wanttttttttttttttt......

writtern @9:38 PM