♥A Love Affair

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Friday 27th March 2009

March is coming to an end soon.

What I have done so far?

Been working very hard to continue studying.

I have so many things on my mind, that really affects my health.

I am getting so tired, my energy level is getting very low.

Today, went out to study with LSM at Woodlands.

Ate at Mac and decide to just stay put there and study. Good place to study haha but i think we ended up discussing over the same topic that has been bothering us for quite some time.

The little kids we saw at Mac were so adorable. ^_^

LSM had to leave at 6.15pm to meet her friends so we left at that time.

I am exceptionally tired today so didn't do much work for the day.

Tommrow must gambatte again!!

Fighting!!!

Saturday 28th March 2009

STUDYING LOH

LISTENING TO MY CURRENT FAVOURITE MUSIC LOUDLY, SO NICE!!

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Sometimes I wonder what is this really all about?

I don't know why but I absolutely have a different feeling about this.

I can't shake it off.

My friend and I agreed that something wrong is going on.

There are some things that just don't tally.

I intend to find it out.

I can't help it but I want to know. ^_^ be it good or bad, i believe i will accept it after some time.

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writtern @10:00 PM

Thursday, March 26, 2009

MONDAY 23RD MARCH 2009

I recieved a missed call in the morning, should be from school.

I didn't call immediately because I had to gather my courage to face the likelihood of recieving bad news.

The lady talking on the phone was 'beating around the bush' and her tone sounded as though it was something serious. So I gathered that it was indeed bad news.

I wasn't shortlisted and she will send me the details to me.

I presumed that she will send me the details through email, like what my friend had. I waited and waited but no email came.

I wanted to go so badly but am very worried that my parents won't let me.

I didn't tell my mama immediately, i waited till the nighttime when my parents were at home.

Even so, I found it hard to open my mouth and tell them.

Eventually, I had to and they looked so grim.

My parents wanted a list of expenses and i gave them the list that i had prepared early. They weren't pleased with the amount of expenses, too much le.

I didn't know what to do.

TUESDAY 24TH MARCH 2009

I was thinking over and over about this.

Should I apply with my friend earlier just to at least book seats for the courses and hostel room?

I made up my mind to tell my parents by tonight, I still couldn't.

WEDNESDAY 25TH MARCH 2009

Today, I told my parents and they weren't responsive at all.

If I apply and I dropped out of the program, I will have to pay additional sum of money.
That made me hesitate to apply.

Then, LSM told me urgently that there weren't any rooms in the hostel that we wanted to stay at. OH NO!! At that moment, I know it is so weird for me to do so, but I felt so disappointed that I was about to cry.

I felt very sorry to LSM because we could have gotten places for the particular hostel if not for my delaying.

I made a decision- i don't care le, i will just apply.

That very night, we applied but there were a lot of questions that we had in mind.

THURSDAY 26TH MARCH 2009

I called up the school and guess what, they actually left me out and didn't even send me the email or even the transcript and other important documents to the school.

How can they forget me? >_<

If I didn't call them and they didn't realise the fatal mistake, my application wouldn't be processed.

Oh ya, I called the lady to ask her questions a few days ago. And she got irritated, she kept insisting that there will be a briefing to answer my questions and refused to tell me other information.

My friend encountered this too. The lady (don't know who she is) called my friend to inform her that she wasn't shortlisted. Before my friend can say that she won't be going, she hanged up the phone.

Today, I was listening to kang xi lai le variety show. For this episode, celebrities are talking about their ghostly encounters. It was so scary that I planned to sleep early tonight. Too eerie.

writtern @11:03 PM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Wednesday 18th March 2009

STUDYING IN PROGRESS...

MEANWHILE WORRYING OVER EVERYTHING IMPORTANT

Thursday 19th March 2009

STUDYING IN PROGRESS...

MEANWHILE WORRYING OVER EVERYTHING IMPORTANT

Friday 20th March 2009

I recieved a sms by LSM about where is the lt? I thought it was sending message to the wrong person. And she told me that there is a lesson today!! Oh my gosh, by the time I looked at the sms, it was only 10 minutes before class starts.

How?

I quickly rushed there via my father's car and ended up 10 mins late.

Only during the break, then did I sit with my friends.

Kept thinking my lesson starts on the last week of March.

Haha I told Misha about the snake incident and she was laughing when I did the gesture. haha

LSM told me she recieved a missed call probably from the programme and I urged her to call back.

LSM wasn't shortlisted. Aiii

Hmm..me and DWS didn't recieve anything so our results will be known anytime.

Worried and nervous

Saturday 21th March 2009

STUDYING

Sunday 22th March 2009

Today is my uncle's housewarming party. He has a very nice house! haha

Just going out for a few hours make me so so tired.

When I reached home, I was lazing around in my bed and fell asleep.

So didn't do much studying..i am so tired these days.

writtern @3:49 PM

Monday 16th March 2009

Happy birthday to my best friend!!

Too bad i can not go out to celebrate on this very day.

Hopefully can make it up in June.

And i wanna learn ice skating from her asap, in June.

Tuesday 17th March 2009

In the afternoon, my grandma called and she told my mother that she had a bad fall last friday and hurt her arm.

Sigh, no one notify us about this.

Decided to go visit her in the night.

Rest well!

I roughly calculated potential expenses and OMG, it is a lot. Die le lah, my parents wouldn't let me go if i need this amount of expenses. >_<

Okay, i shall try to re-evaluate and hopefully can reduce the required expenses.

writtern @3:45 PM

Monday 9th March 2009

Mood of the day: Very down

Reason: didn't get the supposed phone call from school
the chance is gone le loh..
i should at least have a chance to be interviewed
i wonder how i am going to get permission to go

So, really don't have the mood to study.

in the afternoon, i was taking a short nap when my hp vibrating.
usually i dun read sms immediately de so i just look at the screen: ohhh from DWS
usually i am the one who initating smsing DWS or LSM so wonder what it is about

After a short while,
my phone vibrated again so i waited for more than 2 times if there is a call
and it is a call but with an unrecognisable number.

Actually i have a phone phobia-phobia of picking the phone
And yea i decided i must be brave to take this call.
OMG!! is from the school and i got an interview on Wednesday!!!
Wah I leaped out of bed loh.

Then I read DWS's sms and she got an interview too!!
But hmm...LSM didn't send me so i am not sure whether she had any phone call.
Then went online and DWS and LSM were there.
Oh no wonder, LSM had a missed call and I asked her to call back and she had the interview too.
Cool!! So the 3 of us have it. Yea!!!!

Mood at the end of the day: ^_^ (jumping for joy)

Tuesday 10th March 2009

Hmm.. i better prepare and brainstorm for tomorrow's interview.

But i think i went out to study bah so i was very tired and didn't do much preparation for interview.

So since my interview time is at 9am, i have to sleep early and hopefully tomorrow's interview will go very well.

Wednesday 11th March 2009

Mood: nervous

I woke up early and went to school extra early in case of unforseen circumstances.

Planned to read some singapore budget notes before the interview so stayed on the 4th floor.

After a while, I saw someone who looked like Lee min (my friend) and she didn't seem to recognise me. She sat on the table next to mine. I can't believe it, she didn't say hi to me. So I decided to say hi and she finally showed signs of recognisation. Oh my gosh, she looked so different. So I went to sit at her table and started talking. It seems she is going for the interview and she is going to the same place as me!!! Cool!! But I thought she is a very rich girl, why did she want to get the sponsorship? Her reason is she wanted to see whether she is good enough. Ok bah, reasonable one. And she wore so formally. Made me think i am not going to make it.

Sighh...and our timings are like one after the next loh. haha anyway, no matter if she is going to get the scholarship, she is still going. Oooo that means there are potentiallly 4 of us going there. Isn't that perfect? And all the time, I was fretting over 3 people going, including me.

Haha this is fate that bring us to meet again.

Cos I know her since primary school tuition.
Then many years later, i was in the same class as her during jc first 3 months.
And now, I see her again!!!!!!

Isn't that fate? haha

The interview didn't go very well. I was too nervous and my mind was absolutely blank.

I don't think I am going to get it.

I wish I can replay yesterday, regretting not preparing for the interview.

How I wish i can have a second chance for the interview.

Thursday 12th March 2009

Mood: negative, feeling affected by yesterday's events

studying...

when i am tired with studying, i started calculating potential expenses.
At least i am doing something useful and makes me forget about studies for the time being.
Should say..something to look forward to bah. ^_^

Friday 13th March 2009

Ooo it is another Friday the 13th.

As usual, studying, calculating expenses and practicing.

Saturday 14th March 2009

Today is da mouth's music party and we didn't get the tickets. Aii

Never mind loh, hopefully there will be a next time.

Anyway, looking at the bright side, I get to study. ^_^

Sunday 15th March 2009

Doing the usual.

I have been thinking about the troubling issue again.
Feel that it isn't me.

writtern @3:10 PM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Sunday 8th March 2009

Happy Birthday to me!

Birthdays are supposed to be happy occasions but worries been making me unhappy.

Anyway...i still went out..this time with my current group of uni friends- DWS and LSM.

We had lunch buffet at Sakae Sushi.

And to my surprise..they treated me.

I didn't expect it cos i just asked them out for lunch only.

Thanks to them and thanks to my friends who wished me. ^_^

At this time around..I can't really relax and really have a fun time out. :(

Hopefully i can make it up in june.

writtern @7:16 PM

Sunday 1 March 2009

I submitted my very important application last Friday. But I still feel very uneasy..it has been worrying me. What if I can't make it? I really really really really want to go!!!

My best friend asked me to go temple pray.
haha i am not Buddhist leh.
And she replied: as long as you are sincere..it is okay to pray.

Monday 2 March 2009

Went out to study...time to study in a different environment...

Tuesday 3rd March 2009

School.....

Wednesday 4th March 2009

Something came back again.

I thought I was over it..perhaps just avoiding it and shifting my thinking to some other issues.

But it wasn't successful i think.

Rather ..i got confused.

Again..it made me draw closer to the issue just like the old times.

Like pulling me closer when I know i am not supposed to....not supposed to..not supposed to.

This time round..persuading myself seems to be even tougher to accomplish.

I will still try because reality forces me to do so.

Never ever get lured in because it will do me no good and I know the hard and sad fact about that.

Reality isn't going the direction that I wanted..reality is leading away from the direction that i wanted.

For this matter..I should walk the reality path not the other way.

I shall be brave

Thursday 5th March 2009

I didn't dare to count down.

I don't want to.

I am scared.

Friday 6th March 2009

Nithya smsed me and said: have u recieve any calls from the program?

That was the time i locked myself in my room..broke down and cried.

How can I be denied a chance to be interviewed?

There is no reason for them to do that.

I smsed my 2 other friends and all of them didn't recieve any calls.

I looked at my hp for many times - no missing calls..no smses....

How hard it is to face the harsh truth.

i guess i have no hope.

I got so upset...why do bad things always happen around my birthday?

I don't like it at all.

Saturday 7th March 2009

Decided to call up the office and clarify.

No one answered my call..guess have to wait till monday.

By today..i have given up hope that i won't have a chance to get an interview.

How am I going to make sure I get to go?

writtern @6:01 PM

Friday, March 06, 2009

Monday 23 Feb 2009

felt so bored..couldn't stand studying at home so decided to go out to woodlands library to do work.

Tuesday 24 Feb 2009

Schooling....

Wednesday 25 Feb 2009

Schooling....

Thursday 26 Feb 2009

Studying...

Friday 27 Feb 2009

Schooling...

Saturday 28 Feb 2009

Studying..how boring my life has become. Didn't have anything to share in my blog..at least i think i have forgotten what did i exactly do for each day but basically speaking..is still studying.. haha

writtern @10:07 AM