~Thursday 21 August 2008~

I need a break from studies..so was playing computer games the whole day...whee.. (>_<) Had a surprise birthday party for Janice at harbourfront. Wah, she had a hunch that we were going to spring a suprise for her, so she went early to vivocity to find us. So glad that we were in harbourfront, and not vivocity. After she met JJ, she was convinced that we weren't there since she has found the entire vivocity. The rest of us were waiting at Pastamania with the birthday cake. And she happily walked past the restaurant without noticing us inside. haha We were so full after the dinner that there wasn't any room for the cake. Therefore, decided to walk around before eating the cake. First stop to the pet safari..second stop to the arcade, haha it was so fun, but not enough variety of games leh. Last stop to the sky garden, where we ate our cake and took pictures. Haha June commented that this is like a secondary school friends gathering. guess we get along very well with each other...btw we are uni friends..haha ~ Friday 22 August 2008~ Plan--> half day at work...to look through the class materials for the new week..
huhu, but no time to finish reading...so worked the whole day loh.
and there is a lot of things to do, really need to help the rest of the buddies finish their work..

sigh, i plan to do some lone shopping after my work..haha

~ Saturday 23 August 2008~

went early to work to brief GH of what to teach in class....she is always earlier than me..haha taking the mrt to work will be much more punctual compared to me taking the bus.

i was feeling uneasy about teaching the highest level class of the toddler group....i am glad it went smoothly. It was so easy to teach the little boy...he paid very close attention to the lesson.

my father is very concerned of my job, he thinks that if it is too tiring for me, might as well quit and concentrate on my studies...not only that, we don't get to eat lunch ah especially during the weekends, so he finds it very unfair...which is very true. Boss is treating us like robots...even robots needs a break. Boss doesn't like it when she sees us in the office during the weekends...she thinks that we are lazing around, which we definitely aren't! Is staying in the office during the weekends a crime?

But I miss the kids loh, if i quit. I want to build the trust between the children, parents and me. So even if i quit later, at least, they will still remember me. Doubt i will quit early. Guess have to just see see loh.

I was so tired today that i don't feel like conversing much. That's why one of them thought i looked moody.

~ Sunday 24 August 2008~

Another terrible day! No break again..during the 3rd class, my whole body started trembling, this is a sign of over exhaustion. I really need a break. In the 4th class, i just had to help out ST so i told her that i will go for lunch and come back again.

It was raining heavily...so i was walking slowly towards the Lucky Plaza to buy my lunch. Before crossing the road, I fell down on the stairs. My back hit the stairs and my foot was bent in the process of falling. And my slippers flew to the bottom of the stairs. I didn't know what to do...i didn't have my office number in my hp. I picked myself up, stood there and thought whether i should go ahead to Lucky Plaza or go back to the office. Embarassing since the security guard at the Lucky Plaza and some parents saw me falling. Hmm..decided on the latter..so i made my way slowly back. And I told the fellow colleagues at the reception area and they brought me into the office to rest. My clothes were wet from the falling, so they were kind to start searching for shirts for me to change into. But there wasn't any. One kind colleague went out again to buy me lunch and treated me to hot milo. Thanks so much! In the end, I asked one of the staff to tell ST that i won't be helping her in class because of this incident. And also asked GH to be the main teacher for my last class, it will be inconvenient for me to walk around. Smsed my father about it and asked him to fetch me from work later...i worried that i will fall down again and no one will be there to help.

While I was resting in the office, there was a blackout. This time round, they couldn't find the source of the problem. So the whole company was stuffy, they couldn't start the aircon and the cd player...thus have to change the plans in the class activities. Then the boss kept peeking in my class because all the doors were wide open. i think she doesn't trust me and GH loh.

GH asked me whether i cry after my fall in the rain, hmm, perhaps i was too shocked to do that...didn't even think of crying..haha

haha the senior consultant kept making me laugh...he is so humourous...haha thanks!

it was still raining heavily after work...my parents came for me.. i brought back my work home to finish up. since we are in orchard, my parents bought korean food home for dinner..yyippee!! While we were waiting for the lift to the carpark at the Lucky Plaza, a group of foreigners came, should be Indonesians bah. The lift took ages to come to the first floor...so one of the foreigners nearly pushed my mother aside..and gave a hard punch to the lift door. Wah we were so shocked...i could see my father's face changed. A couple was waiting along with us and they left after seeing the violent scene. I think he must have been drunk. One friend quickly pulled him aside and said sorry to everyone. We feared our safety and didn't know what else he will do..so we walked the other way.

writtern @9:14 PM

~Monday 18 August 2008~

study study study....

There is a full moon yesterday...heez i took a picture of it...

"you are like full moon, when i didn't expect you to show up, u did. when i expect you to show u, u disappear without a trace..."

i got a fright all of a sudden...was thinking..am i doing the right thing? is it best for me to avoid such situations...i am leaning towards that direction yet i became doubtful about it. Should i continue going on the straight path, rather than turning left or right?

what do i plan to do about this?
follow my "future detector"? even if so, i don't know what to make of it. sometimes, it seems as though i am led to a dead end. From my view, i don't see any possible way to get through the dead end.Is there a false wall? Is the future detector not accurate, losing its sense of direction?

I know that some things just can't be rushed. But constant reminders are making me frustrated. I don't see any way at all! why keep doing that to me? For other situations, it has not been like that before. If it is not lying to me, i can sense that there is something different about this. But what exactly is it??!!


~Tuesday 19 August 2008~

I was overwhelmed with disappointment..how can this ever happen?
Trust is invisible yet valuable and fragile.
When trust is broken, it is difficult to put it back together.
i don't get it why people like to stab each other backs...just don't get it!

watched Calefare and First Class..haha loved it...missed secondary school life...
they should produce more good English sitcoms like this....

~Wednesday 20 August 2008~

Happy Birthday PS and our director!
I tried to send a happy birthday song to be played during their celebration but it failed. Sigh!!
haha a few days only..already miss me..haha

writtern @12:45 PM

~Saturday 16 Aug 08~

Today is Family day in my workplace. Anyway, this is a gimmick to attract new customers. Not only that, the staff was only told of this plan just a few days ago. Frankly speaking, I hate this type of working attitude. We should be informed of whatever she is cooking up earlier to make it successful. Her last-minute plans are always so flimsy (every single staff knows that), didn't even cover all the loopholes. Anyway i learnt a lot from her mistakes..haha...that is...
Refrain from doing last minute plans at all!!

As expected from her last minute plans, the place is chaotic!! haha you can practically see our hair are all in a mess..that's how chaotic it is! Oh ya, we are not allowed to go out for lunch, the company will provide. If we get caught going out to lunch, die loh.The staff lunch provided was so pathetic..not enough to keep everyone full. we are not happy!!

I was having 6 classes continuously for the whole day. No break at all. This is the same for the other staff. By the time I came out from my classes in the middle of the day for a mini break...the food provided for the new customers were gone. The catering table was so small...the size of my studying table in my room...which is very small. I heard that most of the existing customers ate up the food instead of the new customers. No wonder the food was gone so fast. haha it is impossible to stop the existing customers from eating right? Makes no sense loh...they paid so much money and told not to eat that? See loh, another problem she failed to think about.

Wah, saw a famous actress at my work place, perhaps accompanying her grandchildren to look at the company. My fellow buddies didn't notice her. Heez i guess i have a knack at spotting celebrities in daily situations...me usually one of the first to spot.

I experienced a shocking happening from boss. I was in one of the rooms helping out with aunt and she needed matchsticks to teach the kids. ( There was a thinking problem about matchsticks.) So I thought of going to the "temporarily no entry" classroom to look for the matchsticks. When I opened the door, the boss was in there staring at me, right behind the door. Ahhh!! I jumped up. The face is enough to scare anyone. Honest...really!! My fellow buddies told me before of the time when it was late at night and there weren't any lights along the corridor. And they saw her walking in front of them...they said it was so scary because of the long hair and the way she walked. Wah thank goodness she didn't turn around...i think i will faint haha. Back to the situation, hmm, i have a feeling that her mind is not right at the moment..because she started asking nonsensical questions and searching for something that doesn't exist in the room. When I went back to Aunt's room, my heart was beating very fast till I couldn't say a word...i felt as though my soul flew off and haven't come back.

During the trial classes, parents kept peeking in..no teacher can stand it loh.Sigh...no peace. It is so obvious of the peeking..cause they practically stuck their heads through the gaps of the door. (=____________=)

I felt unwell again...haven't recover yet from my sickness. (>_<) dizziness coming back~~
thanks for the concern !

There was one particular incident that was so cute. haha teaching the toddlers to use their imagination and form a picture using the cut up shapes of squares, circles and triangles. A kid did his picture with a very abstract taste...and i asked him.."what is the title of your picture?" And you know what he said? He said: "this is called rubbish. " When his mother heard it, she was laughing very hard. So cute!!

I was only told that i have been to be at the Pasir Ris roadshow tomorrow. Then what about my classes? I got so fed up...what is going to happen for my classes? Huh..has she ever thought of that? Her plan was for me to go to Pasir Ris in the morning and then afternoon, rush back to teach my classes. What is this nonsense??!! Sorry, i am just very angry with her planning. She dind't consider that i have to travel from jurong all the way to Pasir Ris and then rush back to Orchard to teach. It is like nearly going one round of Singapore.

Thank goodness, the understanding programme consultants explained to her that this is not feasible. Whew...my friend offered to go to the roadshow because she lives near pasir ris and she is always have half day work on sunday. Luckily, i was complaining to her about this, if not, i would have to go to Pasir Ris. And i really really really want to recover from my illness..and the way boss is doing it, i doubt i can ever recover. So conclusion-wise, i just had to teach my friend's classes for tomorrow only.

Sun 17 Aug

In the afternoon, I was on my way to the office from my class. A parent approached me and handed me the newspaper articles, they said they were looking for the venue of the seminar. I was very surprised because none of the staff know that the Family day was extended to Sunday too. Hmm..didn't even know how to answer the parents. So I left the case to one of the programme consultants.

We were all getting fed up..they put 9 kids in a class...and most of them are trial kids!!Crazy loh...
The so-called policy of the company is to have 8 as the maximum number of children in the class. Excuse me, they have exceeded le. How do we answer the parents when we kept giving empty promises?

i am glad that my kids are having a great time with me...let's work hard together!! GH was very amused of the way i talked to the children...haha

A girl wanted to tell me a secret but she forgot to talk about it after the class. haha

Mon 18 Aug

plan to rest a lot and hope for a speedy recovery...
but it ain't speedy at all...very slow leh..
i am doing part time liao!! yea!!
so i can concentrate on helping my bro and also rushing my own plans ah

writtern @11:26 AM

~Monday 11 August 2008~

boss wants us to come back on monday cos we didn't work on sunday. aiii why can't give us 3 days of holidays ah?

reached early but found G sitting outside the door eating his breakfast..ahh the key is missing so he couldn't open the company's door. What to do but to wait...so i chatted with him loh. hmm..he told me,people are realistic, especially when they have families to feed, anywhere got higher pay with the same kind of job, of course they will go to the company with a better pay.

We waited for more than 40minutes...even parents have arrived..die loh...soon, almost all our company staff were waiting outside the door. Wah it is so stuffy..very suffocating..i can't stand it when the ventilation is very poor..will have difficulty breathing...so a few of us went downstairs for a while.

Aunt and me had nothing much to do loh..we weren't assigned extra things to do compared to the rest of our buddies. Might as well have a half day and go home loh..we felt so sleepy...

i dislike going to work on monday...monday blues

~Tuesday 12 August 2008~

when i was on the bus and on my way to work, i didn't feel that well.
i thought i would be able to endure and lasts the whole day
but when it was near to noon, couldn't take it anymore, would have collapse at any moment..
so requested for a half day leave
feel so sick ah...
During lunch, the kind-hearted aunt bought porridge for me...
cannot take it le ..a possiblity of fainting is high ah..so i went home loh..

Back at home...
when i lie on the bed...oh my goodness..i felt worse..
started shivering under my blanket even though it wasn't that cold
my body aching..
dizzy
very dry throat
couldn't get a good sleep...
so sleeping on and off till 7 hours
i dind't even have the energy to get out of my bed..
i could sense no one was at home..so to prevent myself fainting anyway in the house..i didn't leave my bed loh...
it was a terrible feeling

my work buddies smsed me or called me to ask me how i was feeling......thanks for your concern
i am very grateful...(^_^)

~Wednesday 13 August 2008~

i decided to stay at home bah...weekends will be tiring for me...and i need to recuperate as soon as possible. i dun want to collapse in the middle of my lessons. and if i didn't go to work, i doubt anyone can take my classes...everyone has a class to teach at every other time...

went to see doctor in the afternoon

didn't go for the august month babies celebration dinner..
i miss everyone...especially GH...haha my closest work buddy...

still feel unwell leh...

~Thursday 14 August 2008~

is JS's birthday..hee happy birthday....!!

after my afternoon nap...i felt that i should be well soon..
tml have to go to work leh...must know my class materials well..
i dun wanna go work !!

~Friday 15 August 2008~

"i am praying hard..so that my message in my mind can be felt miles away..."

i felt miserable but still glad that i pulled through..i did it!!

still don't feel well..guess i am still in a sick mode. getting very dizzy..so sorry that i wasn't of any help..even ST was unwell too. How can both sick teachers be in the same classroom teaching? It is best not to.

I worried a lot about the following day. Will i suddenly collapse in the middle of my lesson? Will I be able to teach smoothly? When will i have the time to eat my medicine? no one is allowed to leave the workplace during lunch time because we have to entertain the kids. No lunch ah.....how can...for sick people?? HAO HU QIN!!!!

writtern @7:58 AM

~Monday 4 August 2008~

studying....to help my bro in his studies

~Tuesday 5 August 2008~

i told the boss that i will be changing to part time early because of family matters. and she said yes..wah i am relieved..been thinking of how to tell her..and luckily opportunity shows up on her own, boss wants to talk to me about the changing to part time.

it was a last minute decision again...i was told to stay back late for the seminar and the trial class the next day...i thought i was safe from doing it....in this place,no one gets to run away unless they are being favoured.

~Wednesday 6 August 2008~

I watched anime called Hataraki Man. It is about this female editor in the publishing company who is a workaholic. Because of work, she sacrificed a lot. When she is concentrating hard on her work, she changes to turbo mode and tada! she does her work very fast...plus she looks so cool and professional when she does that.

Hataraki Man
In the end, her bf left her because he felt inferior and they are so busy to make time for each other. Thus, she felt very down because all along, she thought she can handle both love and work well.

I like the Ending lines:

" There are nights when you cry, dwelling on the sacrifices you make for your job
but...
there are mornings too when your job is your salvation!!"

it is true that i have been feeling demoralised because of my work. i want to give up..seeing the bad situation...and blah blah..those negative factors kept running in my mind..but i couldn't let go..i can't break the trust in the parents...i will miss my little students..who are so friendly with me now..i enjoy preparing class work and doing my job..i enjoy my fellow work buddies's company. The specific lines in the anime brought back my confidence...i am telling myself: I can do it! Aja aja fighting~~

Today, starting work late because i am doing the night shift...

so i was lazing around at home, enjoying my anime..when an email notice popped up..and without thinking, i pressed it. ahhh!!!! i can't reveal what it is..but it is kinda important to me..today, i bumped into it again. (=_=)..please sky, stop trying to remind me...i don't know what you want to achieve at the end of all these...just give me a break, won't ya?

accompany SH to buy coffee...and on our way back to the office, saw this middle aged man. firstly, he throw something invisible in the air towards the building and then with his hands outstretched and admiring our building...seems like the person wasn't in a sane state. SH didn't notice..till i told her to walk the other way, and not getting near the man.

no time to eat my dinner and also the birthday cake...Today is aunt's birthday..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! haha "kuku moya"...heez

supposed to have a birthday celebration for all august babies...but this event popped up without us knowing in advance...so it is postponed.

taught 2 toddlers in trial class..haha the fathers' thinking is the same...they felt that the classwork is tough for their precious kids...they don't want to stress them so hard before the schooling age.

SH is getting very forgetful..she wanted to buy coffee but she forgot her wallet..she left her thumbdrive in office and the next day, called me frantically. (>_<) she really needs her rest.

I overheard that boss wasn't pleased with certain consultants just because they didn't close any deals.

This scene reminded me of Hataraki Man...in the anime, the boyfriend changed job to a salesperson.

He said that "sales is a thankless job. When salesperson did well, no one thanked them. When they had no sales at the end of one day, supervisors will be criticising them. "

Hmm, it is not easy to have sales.

In life, we have ups and downs. It is impossible to have ups every day right? As long as the person did his/her best within her control, it is sufficient le. Some things are just beyond our control.

I was standing near the photocopy machine when all of a sudden, HY came in with a serious tone: "I want to ask you a question. "

Wah, gave me a scare...' is he going to scold me? what did i do?'

aiya HY wanted to tell me about his joke...boss's english mistake about mozart..haha so funny!! That's why i feel so fortunate that i know English.

~Thursday 7 August 2008~

GH woke me up in the morning via her phone call.

huhuhu didn't practice my dance or even do my own thing.. i will be in charge of my bro's studies..so have to do some preparation

heez playing my psp... suddenly SH called me..searching frantically for her thumbdrive...die liao..she is getting very absent minded...

i went to take a short nap...heez today raining heavily..a good time to sleep.. i have different emotions when rain comes...this time, i feel like just hiding under my blanket, feeling very small and at the same time, feeling down too... so lazy to go out.

D called me in the middle of my nap, just to tell me the movie starts at 7 instead of 7.15pm. (=_=) i rushed there loh..knew going to be running late... bad situation...his hp low batt..so difficult to tell him i will be slightly late... i reached there and he told me that it is really 7.15pm. (=______=) since it is early, then just walked around aimlessly loh. he suddenly said that he want to buy tissue..huhh for wat? he heard that the movie is gonna be sad..he scared that i will cry so he wants to buy tissue..haha it is ok..i will try my best not to cry...usually if i am watching a sad movie with a very good friend, i will cry out de...but this case, he is my senior at work, so don't know him that well, then will control my crying.. my appetite is getting smaller so won't be eating dinner...he was joking...must eat ah..later u faint how...

We watched Money no enough 2...wah really good leh...but a bit too long ah..haha very funny at the beginning..after that it swinged to very emotional...yes and i cried...my heart breaks into a million pieces especially because of the grandmother. Must go watch leh...very good show...really depicts what almost every household is facing... the cinema is so coldd..brrr....relieved that i brought my jacket to keep me warm..but it is not enough..freezing leh...

~Friday 8 August 2008~

i was the earliest to reach among the teachers. haha saw the Burger King Coupons on MM's table..wah so tempting to eat that during lunch. A few of us agreed to eat at BK for lunch. Can't wait! but we walked to far east ...and there wasn't any BK...so we ate at LJS instead. haha

During lunch, Aunt demonstrated how the manager was practising before his speech..it was hilarious.

I was called to take a trial class...the mothers are not supposed to be in the classrooms but they insisted to be inside. Sigh..One of the mothers kept bombarding me and aunt with questions but i don't have time to answer her queries...in the first place, they are late...so i have to speed up my teaching. After work, I feel a bit under the weather...forehead getting warm...i don't want to be sick... anyway, SH wanted to walk around in Far East...so i accompanied her.. i told her something and her response was shocking....cannot be lah..don't scare me leh...but i am amused on how she derived that answer...

~Saturday 9 August 2008~

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! and also HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! haha very happy that i don't need to work...i need my rest badly.... XH smsed me to ask whether i can go out...so that she can teach me japanese and i can lend her my uni books. But i don't feel well to go out...very sorry...>_<

~Sunday 10 August 2008~

went out with my best friend to celebrate our birthdays... ahh our birthday celebrations were long due liao...so no matter what, must go out together ah and have a fun time! i only this rare slot to go out...if miss this, i don't know when will be the next time to go out...our working days clashes in the first place.

We promised to meet at Boon Lay Mrt in the morning. Wah i got a shock when i alighted there. I thought i alighted at the wrong stop...cos there were tall buildings surrounding it thus making the mrt station very dark. It wasn't like that, the last time i went.

We exchanged presents and the things that we owed each other...now i don't need to keep so many reminders in my mind.

Next, to bugis junction to walk around...

then to marina square to have our lunch at swensens...with chocolate fondue!! Our first time eating chocolate fondue...the ice cream is so nice! But a bit too much leh...not all the fruits go well with the chocolate though...i think they should put that on the menu as chocolate fondue for 2 people with a hearty appetite rather than chocolate fondue for 2 people.

lastly to kbox at marina square...sing for four hours nonstop.....come to the point when i couldn't continue singing cos i am close to having sore throat and losing my voice. We had fun there!! haha...

To sum it all, this is a happy day to go out~~Happy Belated Birthdays!!

writtern @8:39 AM