Wednesday 2nd Sept 2009 (Part 1)
I slept at 9.30pm yesterday night and woke up at 1.30am.
Couldn't get to sleep after that.
Trying to think of happy thoughts but there aren't many happy thoughts for me to think about.
After certain things happened, in my view, some friendships are over. We are no longer friends. There is nothing that I can revive. It is hard to take out the nails that were put permanently into the friendship as time goes by. Now, we feel distant from each other. On my side, I can't bring myself to talk to certain people or be warm to them and also these days, I sense their lack in response or reluctant to talk to me. I will give myself some time for me to get away from these kind of friendships. If after some time, the friendships get back to normal, then it is ok. But if it doesn't, I have no choice but to let go of the friendships. It is a tough decision.
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