Today is the last day of my first semester in dance. We were too tired to practise so we sat around and chatted. Although it is already our last day today, we didn't actually know each other in the class especially with the boys. Then my friend started asking them their names and introduced everyone else. haha what irony, today is the last day and yet now then , we have this proper introduction. Up till now, i don' really know the boys' names. Did formation and i happened to be in the group whereby i have to differ from the usual routine- change of directions. So i had to ponder for a while to make sure i do in the correct direction. K lah, a bit challenging for me. We are having a one week break before starting the second semester.
Raining so heavily today-nearly cannot even see the roads. think of it as one benefit--> haha more water in the reservoir for our daily consumption. When i reached home from dance, i really feel like sleeping. But i have to endure loh cos i have to go to my senior's birthday party in the night. haha..her aunt's place is so huge. haha..my friends and I decided that we want our future homes to be there. it is like a little town in European countries and so peaceful. haha but we live individually loh. i agreed with my friends that it is actually difficult to live with friends cos we may ended up quarreling for the slightest things. This may affect friendship as we may have conflicting lifestyle habits.Saw a number of seniors that i classified under "popular seniors in school". Some of them have changed that i couldn't really recognise them. They still have that same behaviour as compared to during school time. In a way gotta catch up with happenings with my friends -which were more of the "shocking news" category. But i can't mention it here.
Today is the day that i found out that someone has been making use of my name and somehow tainted my reputation.I tell u ...it is downright disappointing. It hurts badly when you have done nothing to the person and the person just did some bad stuff plus he/she doesn't feel apologetic about it at all. Got such insensitive people existing? Yes, there are lots of them. Sad to say, i have come across too many le but still, i got hurt again and again by different individuals. I don't know how to deal with them at all cos they appear in different forms. Perhaps i will take a year to see that they are the same kind deep down. My friend once asked me- "why are your friends like that de?" My response was: "I dont know but they just like to come my way-one after the other. I don't think that i can break away from such a situation."
I really don't know what to do. I have come to a point whereby i can't do anything to help myself. Every decision is not for me to decide. It is beyond my control and is spinning away like crazy.
