I feel that everything is slipping away from me. Things that i want to have..i can just see it drifting away from me along with the "waves" and i can't do anything about it. My wishes are like totally invalid for redemption. I actually ignored the warning signs about something and worked really hard for my goals. I already put in more than 100% effort le. Really, i have never work as hard as this before jc. But still, fate managed to win hands down ultimately and got me squashed as flat as a sheet of paper. How can u actually understand how i am exactly feeling? only i can understand how serious it is myself. I thought to myself..this is it. finally i can change my luck and can be closer to my ideal life. But i can see myself, continue on going downhill. i can't even change my gears, no matter how hard i try. i can' t even climb back to safety.
Thanks to my friends who care for me. I really need a hug and u gave it to me. *big hug* but can hug longer mah? haha give me lots of hugs kkk?? i need a lot....haha do anyone knows how to have a lot of luck cos i seriously need a lot. i need to convert bad luck to good luck.
i managed to cheer my friend up a bit with lots of efforts and some friends of her just wasted my efforts by giving tactless comments. Hey..if u dun know how to comfort people, the world is better off without hearing your tactless comments. So angry and irritated with them. To me, they don't look like the kind who will be so blunt. Again, i am very much mistaken. So now my friend is feeling even worse. Another friend was wondering why the people tat i know are those with bad/inconsiderate attitudes. Hmm..i have no idea...maybe my life is like that.
usually at this time, i would have been happily making up a list of wat to buy for my bday. But nothing comes into my mind. my mind is totally blank, i dun want to think of anything. feel like a zombie liao..maybe converting to one real soon.
Happy Birthday to those people who have recently turn 19 and 20!! haha ..my fellow 1st 3 months T14 classmates in 2004 (the whole class is born in feb and march), Xiu Xian, Christopher and others. i only remembered a few cos i send them friendster testimonials..haha...Yea, have a wonderful bday celebration. Pisceans are great!! Heehee I can't believe we are all hitting the 20s range....gosh..it is too fast le...way back, i still think it is a long way to go leh. i dun have much time left le to get myself back on track. i dun know wat to do.
I recently have a new friend in dance loh. Can get along with her, which is good. ^_^ ...haha i hope it wiill improve....
