i am going to be like Sorcha...
i don't want to get hurt anymore...
i have nothing special...
hao tong ku...
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i haven't really show the real me yet..i think
due to being so tired and other stuff which drains most of my energy out..
i really can't show the real me yet...
for the time being, i am going to be like sorcha.....
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nowadays feeling so sick
Reason 1: affected by some inconsiderate person who wakes up so early everyday just to clear his phlegm and is so so loud. he does it for a certain period of time and it truly truly irks me. Until i feel like vomiting. No appetite to eat for quite a number of days already.
Will suddenly feel like vomiting now and then.Now i feel like i can't even breathe easily. Feel like someone choking me or i am suffocating right now. Very hard to breathe well.
Probably there is another reason to it. Perhaps something similar is happening again which gives me the same problem again. Hmm..hope it is not that...does it really affect me so badly?
it seems to me the tables are turned. dun feel like thinking about it but still, it just keeps on staring right in front of my face. how can i not notice it? how can i not??????
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i dreamt that my geo block test got 55. So, there are 2 possibilties, either i will get higher than 55 or get lower. Of course, for me, i would take it as a warning that i failed. It is so impossible that i will get higher than 55, though i have a great feeling while writing my answers during the exam it self. In my dream, when i knew that i got 55, i have no feeling towards it. So when i woke up, i started to panick. Oh no, i am going to try to get out of SSP and had this tinny weeny hope that i will pass. At least 50, i will be happy for now.
During the geo lecture, geo teacher wanted to tell us about how we fare for the geo block test in general. She said that there were 3 groups of people - group 1--> always get good results and those who shot up this time round. group 2--> still hovering at the same marks and group 3--> those who deproved. She started to give those ,who improved a lot, prizes. However, she lost her list and had trouble remembering who should deserved the prizes. At that same time, i was wondering about how i fare, perhaps i am in group 2 or even group 3. Then the geo teacher will be so disappointed in me.
After that, geo rep gave out the geo test papers and i was so tense. Do u know wat i get? 62!!!!
wahaha..i can't believe it. was so happy and touched that i nearly cry. smsed my friend and father and called my mother about it...ahh so happy..
i have never pass geo exam before...i always get 40 minimum and maximum is less than 50. to think that this is the first time i pass and also pass with a higher grade ratther than just slightly over 50...
hmm...for the next block test, i will aim higher for every subject...every subject will be 60 and above!!! i can do it!! maths can de lah, i know i have been underperforming cos i have a lot of careless mistakes. If i dun have that bad habit, i would have scored very high actually. Econs can de..provided that i am very careful..can de...geo must work even harder to score higher than 62, cannot fall. gp..i will try my best..i only have problems with vocab and content. If i am better in that, then i will do it well.
What happened for econs and gp were just hiccups. normally,, my results ain't so bad. yah just happen to stumble.
