Don't know wat's happening to me. Feeling so down.
I guess there is a mixture of reasons why- the recent event and that i rented korean drama series ( Summer scent) which probably makes me sad and heart-broken.
The female main character in the drama series is so pretty. Yah, my mother agrees about that.A girl who loves flowers. So sweet girl. I admire her. How i wish i can be like her.She looks so lovely when she smiles. Just like an angel. No wonder got 2 people liking her. Haha. The male main character is so nice to her even though he is not suppose to like her. Feel so touched. Too bad the main problem is that they can't be together. I actually watched the whole drama series part 1 in only 3 days. Hah...12 vcds --> 3 days. The shop allows me to rent it out for 2 weeks and i finished it in 3 days. Shows how i am really a tv addict. I got hooked on the drama series. Couldn't help putting in the vcds and watching it continuously. Just love their drama series cos i got too engrossed in it and share their emotions. Yah, so that could explain why i am feeling down recently. Feel their pain. Could see their sorrow in their eyes. Eyes can tell how one's feel.
Their songs in the drama series are nice and very meaningful. I just love korean stuff. Wahaha. Just makes my heart feel so touched. In reality, too bad, there's not such lovely and sad stories. I wanna be in it..haha. Anyway, it won't happen to me if there are such things as in love stories. Just enjoy drama series bah. Heez. ^_^
Today, listen to japanese and korean songs and trying to sing along with it. I anyhow sing de. Haha. One of my talents is to anyhow sing. Haha. Since young, in pre-school, i just anyhow sing with no meaning and up to now, i still dont' know what songs are that. My father sometimes follows the way i sing that 2 songs. So embarassing when i hear that from him occasionally. Reminds me of how foolish i was when i was like 2 years old. I feel that japanese and korean songs can fit into what i am feeling and for certain songs, i will fill in a image or event or feelings about something. They are just like memories to me when i hear certain songs. For example: song from SPEED crying in the rain, reminds me of how sad i was last year and i tot of that song during last year's cross-country race. I was alone running in the rain. At that time, i looked up at the sky and felt: why am i such a dissappointment? lously in studies..lously in everything..i am a really good-for-nothing.
Anyway, singing songs from different languages is quite an experience. i feel like expressing myself in another language. Going to learn 2 languages after As.
December reminds me of something. Regretting something. impossible to have a chance to meet. well, just one little bit of hoping that i may get to... maybe not even recognise me. hah..no idea. secretly, i tot chance may come again....
* i want to know the meaning of this...i am going to walk the streets again until i meet u....*
