Jun Jin Min Woo Yeah!! Happy birthday to Min Woo and Jun Jin, my most favourite people in Shinhwa. I like the rest of the members too. ^_^ July 28 and Aug 19!! Heez...Because of them, yah, i persevere on for my dance. I will do it very well especially for the upcoming performance.
Recently, it is so tiring. Almost everyday, i reach home late and i used up most of my energy in dance practice to prepare for the upcoming performance for Teachers' day. People were commented that i have constant energy during the dance, as seem from the videotape. I didn't have the energy to complete with my assignments, let alone study and revise. My whole body is aching. I almost everyday sleep at 12am. Because I need to read Times magazine before i sleep.
I really worry i couldn't make it to j2 again. I am not in top form. Kinda struggling with my studies especially my geography. Geography is really in a bad state. I need to catch up with a lot of things and must have it on my fingertips no matter what. There is a short time before promos start.
I am trying to put a balance between my studies and cca. I can't neglect either one because i plan to treat them as my twin engines in the future. Sometimes, i feel that i couldn't do it as in, i wanna take a break from school. I gonna break down. Even school holidays doesn't seem like holidays, we still have probably lessons and tons of homeworks and lots to revise. I totally need a break. I need to stay back everyday for rehearsals and extra lessons.
Hmmph..i haven't even clear my napfa test. My standing broad jump!!! Gosh, it is like dancers should be good in sit and reach and standing broad jump. But me, gosh, i am worse than the rest. So, i was wondering to myself, can i actually be a dancer? I am just this unrefined girl who just anyhow be inside the cca and self-proclaimed that i am a dancer. Sigh, so embarassing. Oh, one of my instructors told me that he is also bad in standing broad jump.Somemore, i was asked to do chinese dance for mid-autumn festival in dance. hah, i am not a graceful person, even though if u see, my normal state, i look like the kind who doesn't do vigorous type of dance and is more suitable to graceful type. But, ahah, it is not what u think. I am better in hiphop rather than chinese dance.
Though my standing broad jump is always very bad, i am very proud of my results this year. It is better than last year. Especially proud of my 2.4km run.Hee. For my age, i need to run 16.40 mins to have a silver. I managed to finish it in 15.03 mins. Yeah..so happy... Mostly, i couldn't make it in shuttle run, no idea at all. But this year, i got 11secs. An A grade. Isn't that nice...yeah!
For a certain matter, i am kinda resigned to my own fate. I just happen to be stuck with such matters. What to do?
