7 April 2005 23:24 Sigh, dance is one of my main concerns..joy and pain too...the syf is reallly really around the corner and we have not even improve the performance of the dance yet. On wednesday, after dance, my friend was hopping mad and in the end, cried angrily. Hmmm..yeah, i can understand how she feels. i feel that too but i didn't let out the anger like that. i just feel disappointed instead, not that high degree of feeling angry. Maybe it is because i have already experiened what my real anger version is like and know that people will be scared of me if i show my maximum anger exactly the thing that happened during sec 2. Oh no, i am definitely not going to show that to people. I am trying to be "dormant" now. Again, i should emphasised that no matter how often i got praised (which is my pride)..hehe, i need to say that i got flaws too. Just that my flaws ain't that serious kind of, from what i see. First, i do not smile while i dance. No choice, i couldn't bring myself to smile. The reason is i feel like a fool when i smile during dancing time. Second, i run like a ninja turtle,haha. I didn't tell my instructor that when i was young, i got super obsessed with ninja turtles. During the period of my obession with turtle superheros, i refused to wear other t-shirts that are not ninja turtles. Haha, in the end, i was very smelly. They even searched many places to buy me clothes with pictures of ninja turtles. Haha. Funny obession. Hmmm..now i see the latest ninja turtles cartoon, i think the old one is better than the new version. The new version looks kind of evil, especially the turtles' eyes. Not nice... Hmmm..should i list what problems we are facing? yeah, i probably should.hehe, not listing ppl's bad stuff but i feel that we need to know wat we are having problems with. Let's just analyse it...The most important thing is that there is a lack of strength. Tribal people need strength, if not, how to do primary sectors' work? We all need to steer our minds away from studies, personal problems,worries and others and just just concentrate on dance. Too bad, they didin't get to watch one performance, it was great cos they had lots of energy and gave us audience a fresh taste or outlook.Secondly, we also need to have a feel of how a tribal person feels in his/her life, the moment of being attacked and so on. If don't have that feel or in her shoes, it is hard to bring out the same feeling to the audience. Sigh...how to help them in all this?Also, we need to remember the steps until it is really smoothly. if keep on forgetting..then..die liao...what ever improvments done to the steps, people has to be aware of wat are the changes and immmediately update it in their minds.if not..we will be repeating the same old thing again.Other issues...i hope time can help to tell people that i am not totally in the wrong and also i hope time can help me find the person whom i want to know the answers from...i kept on thinking and thinking. wat if it was not what i think it was, have i wasted my effort and time to think about it for so long? Please...just tell me the answers and i won't waste your time. i beg u ............................
writtern @6:42 PM