4th June 2003 15:57
i hate everything that comes across on me now..
i just want to...
i just want to do wat i want in my own way, is that very hard to get for?
i have been thinking, they are pushing me to a certain limit...so am i going to stay numb..or do something about it?
i always dream of having my own house...i can do watever i want without ppl busy disturbing me..their noises and din of what they make...makes me just fee like living all on my own, who wants noise?
for so many years....i think it is best to just disappear into my own world..just forget wat they did to me
ren yao zhuo tactful de,bu ke zhuo tactless de.
(this is the most meaningful sentence i have come out with)
i know from wat i have written in the diary..i may be a boring person from wat u have seen here, more of a sorrowful person
well, even if the sun is shining brightly, pain is all around...
21 june 2003 16:23
june 21 is special day alright...i gotta hp bk, met A& someone
HP BOOK 5TH i bought it! i am so happy..this is the 1st time i bought hp book on the 1st day of arrival..
i know the reason why there is adult and children version of it
i met amy on the way to tuition late.
i met someone i forgot wat his name |(phpps) at westmall
today..my father finally did up the network system..so my bro and i can use the 2 computers at the same time with access to internet.,,, yippee!
the sad thing is..... 3 good teachers are going away ..
why!!!!
i feel so sad...i cna't even give them to write my autograph book!
30 july 2003 9:59
when someone dear to u is gone, do u find emptiness inside u, i do
6 Aug 2003 15:32
to u it may sound crazy, way down inside my heart, i am drowning
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You're responsible, sweet, gentle and lovable! You have a loving heart, a great respect for all creatures (human, great and small), and the ability to see the thing that makes each individual special. However, you tend to overlook the things that make you special, and thus, putting you in a position to be pushed around by others. Take some time everyday to reflect on your qualities, and see that you don't have to please everyone and still be loved for who you are. Which Love Hina Girl Are You?
20 August 2003 10:47
if i don't care..that means i have given up
the title doesn't refer to my studies.
it refer to other stuff..
to tell u the truth, i am feeling that i can't cope with life..social life especially...
things just messing up the whole thing..
by the way...i went home from Clementi and saw someone that looked like Matthew! wat a surprise...
he looks so big....but mayb he is not???
who knows?
wel...i feel like talking to someone else....but at this time..i guess no body is interested in hearing me say out..
everything just stuck inside my heart
how to get things out?
when ppl ain't hearing??
29 Aug 2003 7:28
let the tears of joy and pain be the stars above,got none to care, i am confused
eriously...nowadays i have been rather confused
i dont' know who i should trust and believe in.......
dear heart....what problems do u have?
i just rather feel i should be careful to whom i am talking, it is very easy to tread in deep waters nowadays. sigh...
i have many tears of joy and pain, will it be stored in my heart always?? The none to care part was that i just feel i am rather alone, none to lean on...
just alone in this world....
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
i went back and was kinda lost. nobody close i know was there. just walking here and there, here and there. seriously, nobody even acknowledged me. i went up to the hall, the hall was super small. everyone was minding their own business. i remembered that my brother said that
19 Dec 2003 9:19
can i restart my life? pretty please?
hi... long time no using this diary...many things sure have happened....
i have finished my Os and now is feeling helpless...
i have recorded down some of the days i spent....but they are not in a normal form....
see below.....
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28 Oct 2003
Title: Complicated World
Wish you can hear what I am gonna to say.
That uncomfortable feeling
been weighing me down.
An additional storm
been depressing me.
Worst, gotta burst
Been getting out of myself,
See the world in "out-of-person" view.
So dizzy, yet so overwhelming.
The future really seemed uncertain.
Wish I could dance like the swaying trees.
Wish I could sing like the beautiful swallows
Wish I could jump high like Tigger.
Wish I could be carefree like the sunny flowers
There are so many wishes to accomplish
Yet, it is hard to live like this
In such a ......
Complicated world
Note: I am not sure whether swallows can sing...
Tigger is a cartoon character in Winnie the Pooh
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The day before the exams start....
Sunday 2.10 p.m.
2nd November 2003
I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
I am terrified, depe down inside
The days just gone past quickly
without halting a while to rest
THe period of sorrow has come
Why is it so so fast
until I couldn't believe my eyes?
I don't feel prepared,
not at all
Nothing to help me feel calm
nothing at all
My heart went pounding
faster like a horse galloping
Can't calm it down
Can't at all.
Tommorrow, I got to step in the room of changing emotions
just like everyone else does.
I can only hope
hope that emotions will be postive after that.
H
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P
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19 Dec 2003 9:47
recall the past dreams
Dreams are a mystical thing..i guess. When i looked back to my past dreams...i feel they are weird....
I sure can say out a few..
For example: something that is related to studies ..i guess the future one
should i read into the dreams like that..or just ..?
